hi, i have never posted on here before so I am hoping this is right.
I am 18 years old, I graduated high school last year. during high school, I really struggled with social anxiety and depression (still am). I had 2 really close best friends, who were manipulative and isolated me from pretty much everyone. at the beginning of year 12, I made one other friend when they left me alone at school for a week, and my '2 best friends' made me chose between them and this new girl. I chose this other girl since she seemed much nicer and there for me.
ever since high school has finished, she has went off and made a bunch of friends. with my social anxiety and depression, I really struggle with this and she was the only person I talked to. I have texted her twice since the beginning of April and she has left me on read. I am assuming she has moved on and gone to bigger and better things than me. even when we did spend time together outside of school, she would only ask me to go shopping because I had a car and offered to pay for food all the time (I know I did this as a way to try and keep people to like me, which is sad).
I am really desperate for a friend. I am so lonely, I cry most nights. I went to therapy when I was 12-17 and nothing helped. I am too sad to leave my room, and socially anxious to try new things and meet people. I don't have social media because it destroys me seeing my past friendships having perfect lives.
if anyone has read this through, I really need advice right now.
