How I feel

[Lib]

I feel like I'm just soo done with everything. Like I'm so tired of everything not physically but in my head, and I feel so stupid that I feel this way bc my problems are like so small compared to other people so idek why I feel like this.

I feel so confused like I don't see a point in anything anymore like I feel like no matter how hard I try I'll never feel like how I used too. I feel like I'm so in my head and it's exhausting. I feel so alone even tho I'm literally not. Sometimes I feel like my thoughts aren't mine and that scares me. I'm starting to realise I don't care what happens to me anymore.

I feel like everyday is just a never ending cycle that I can't escape from, and I'm constantly waiting for things to past even though I try to enjoy the present. I feel left behind no matter how hard I try to be better than I was yesterday. I feel so confused and idk what's happening.

I feel everything and so numb at the same time. This sounds rlly dumb but i feel like something is missing from my life. I feel like I've wasted all my potential even though I try so hard and I don't love the things I used to anymore which makes me sad. I don't have the drive and the passion for the things that I used to.

Ik that was alot but im just so confused.

[TrueSeeker]

Hello Lib

I can see that you're very mentally exhausted. I understand from my own experience how confusion can take a lot of energy. It seems to me that you need a bit of break. Have you tried some relaxation technique? I personally find walking and letting my mind do its thing quite relaxing. Anything that involves relaxed slow action works well. It could help you to rethink where you at and where you want to be.

Also, we don't need to be perfect to do well, it's only the big things that count. It seems to me that you're putting a bit of pressure on yourself. It's ok to be nice to yourself.

I hope this helps, please let us know how you're going.

[Jaster]

Hi Lib,

Firstly, hope you are ok. Not sure how long you have felt this way, good on you for reaching out to talk through with others. As confused as these emotions and thoughts may be, finding some kindred spirits who can relate and offer their own experiences I find helps you recognise that you are not alone.

Cleary these emotions are there for a reason and sounds like you miss many things that used to bring you passion and enjoyment.

Hang on to them. Once your mind has settled find some time alone where you can revisit them. What specifically do you miss. Go into detail. Is there anything stopping you revisiting them? 

Give yourself some space to breathe and clear your thoughts. Not sure if any of that helped. You are and will be ok. Take care of yourself!

Jaster.

[therising]

Hi Lib

I feel for you so much and wish we were having a chat over coffee or something, so as to unpick all the reasons behind how you're feeling life, hopefully leading to some revelations. It can be so hard to make sense of things alone in life, which is something Jaster points to in regard to finding kindred spirits.

One of the key things I've learned on my 54yo journey in life is 'Never minimalise the lead up to a major turning point'. When we say 'My problems are small compared to others', the fact is they're not small when they're leading to something big or when they're calling us to face mind altering or life changing challenges we've maybe never had to face before. 

Being a deeply feeling gal, I can relate to other deeply feeling people. I imagine you can too. With a spectrum or sliding scale from pure feeling all the way through to pure thinking, where we're sitting on that spectrum or scale can determine the kind of experience we're having in life. Based on the number of times you've used the word 'feel' in your post, I imagine you're feeling a heck of a lot at the moment. If there's one thing that would definitely make our life easier it would involve us all being raised to fully understand the ability to feel or sense (being sensitive). In that case 'What is this thing I'm feeling or sensing?' could be met with the revelation 'Ahh, I'm feeling/sensing myself twisting in the wind with no sense of direction'. Not a fan of that one by the way. 

I can relate to the sense of my thoughts not feeling like my own. Not sure if you can relate to the 'you' factor of internal dialogue but this can help explain that kind of sensation. For example, some folk may hear (in the way of inner dialogue) 'I have got to leave this job. It's destroying me', whereas others may sense 'You have got to leave this job. It's destroying you'. Everyone will have a different take on the 'you' factor of inner dialogue. Some may say it's the more conscious part of our brain talking to us, as opposed to the less conscious part. Some may say it's our inner sage or intuition chatting away up there in our head. Some may call it divine guidance, leading us in the best direction and the list of everyone's take on it goes on. Doesn't really matter what it is that we call it, as long as how we choose to identify it or imagine it is constructive or productive. What's also important involves being able to identify the darker kind of dialogue that can become stressful or depressing. 'You're hopeless and you're never going to change' is definitely not constructive or productive dialogue and definitely needs to be managed carefully and strategically. 

If you're looking to feel your way into a more soulful experience of life, what would that look like and how would you like it to feel? Could you be looking at baby steps or perhaps one great leap into it might be more your thing. A heartfelt trek through nature or hang gliding, for example. Both have different feels to them.

A basic passion and a soulful passion are 2 different things. ❤️