Hello Zabi,
I think you've done the absolute right thing in coming here for starters. It took me a long time and many deeply hurtful events to get to the point where I sought help.
I was lucky that I had an excellent GP, whom was my post-natal doctor when I became a new mother. He somehow gave me assurances that I was doing OK in terms of motherhood when I was in constant guilt and shame that I wasn't a good enough mother. There had been drastic events in my life that led me to the point of despair, when I realised that there was no future in the relationship I was in, and the person that I was had been dying inside.
It only took a long appointment with my GP, who listened and somehow understood my despair, and he referred me to a psychologist. I did not click with the psychologist at all and I went back to ask for a different referral. I saw the second female psychologist on and off for 2 years. I was on low-dose medication for a period of time, when I had to deal with an extremely stressful episode of my life. I came off the meds and stopped going for counselling when I felt I could do without.
So there is actually a good working system here to give you support, you might go through a few steps until you find the perfect support you need, but once you take the first step, you'll start seeing and hearing from people who cares deeply and dedicate their knowledge and expertise in people's physical and mental welfare.
Last but not least, this forum here is a source of never-ending support, which has given me over the years many insight, inspiration, strength to carry on, perspectives to be grateful, and conviction when I need it most.
Go for it, and good luck!
