Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[HamSolo01]

That is pretty amateur isn't it Tay? My sister has copped it from other similar types of people in the NDIS. Ridiculous. Seems to be a chronic issue.

You're still young my friend and you have a lot ahead of you. Keep on keeping on. Take these days for what they are with the knowledge that things can change. Never forget that either. Its true for all of us.

I hope you've had a restful arvo. I am off to bed. Back to paradise tomorrow lol (work) - the rumour mill. Hopefully I won't be near them aye?

I best hope off to bed. Catch you tomorrow Tay and all who are frequenting this thread

[Jstar49]

Hey Tay,

well that’s pretty disappointing! However, if it was awhile ago then she’s probably been replaced or something.
Maybe it would be worthwhile giving them another call....? Persistence is often key to success in many areas of life.
hey in the movie I watched today the boy said he was a failure- totally unrelated but cos he had the idea that he should have been able to stop his mum from dying!- anyway the old man in the movie said “ we are all failures. We all fail. Everyone fails. “ and I thought of you Tay. And thought yep, I’ve def failed! But if you don’t fail then you haven’t tried.

another cliche- it takes a few broken eggs to make an omelette- lol 🙂

sweet dreams

J*

[Guest_4643]

Yeah it is disgusting J.

I tried them again with another person but they couldn't help me either. Interesting quote from the movie, that's sweet that you thought of me.

[Guest_4643]

I see my GP tomorrow. I wasn't going to go but I need prescriptions since they're my last repeat. I don't even feel like the antidepressants are working. I told my Psychiatrist this and he was too busy looking at the floor. He mentioned he's not a fan of doing 2 things at once, so putting me on the meds for PTSD (I'm worried about the blood pressure), & changing my meds. I said I'm more worried about changing my meds. I've told him that a few times, and my GP, and he just says speak to your Psychiatrist.

I also need a check over. I've been having this dry cough with phlegm, and a bit of a weeze, sounds like a bark but it's only at night, it's ok during the day except for the phlegm. It's not COVID because I've had Broncitis before so it's probably that again. Plus I don't even go anywhere to get COVID & always wash my hands & wear a mask if need be. I don't have any symptoms of it anyway.

He's going to ask me if I've seen a Psychologist yet, I get so sick of them asking & I say this. It's not that easy. Ugh.

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla I hope your doctor's appointment goes well.Make sure they check your blood pressure though I am sure they do with the medication your on.I hope your bronchitis gets better and dosnt effect you seeing the doctor.
Take care,
Mark

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Mark, I'll ask him for a checkup

[Jstar49]

Hi T,

Yeah, I love movies. I often find something really encouraging in the ones i watch. Altho I tend to like good dramas rather than action. Don't mind a good thriller too. Love kids movies- esp the sad ones. I'll be there weeping away and my kid will look over and go " Muuum! Are you crying..???"

I'm such a sucker for a sad story I guess.

That sux about you Dr always asking if you've seen a psychologist yet. I saw a new GP today and told her whats been happening. I now have THE LIST. I'll let you know how I go, and what the MH scene is like here atm. I had no problems a few years ago, but everyone's saying it's worse becos of covid.

Sounds like you don't want to go on the new medication for PTSD. How are the symptoms going? Are you stiil having nightmares?

Cheers,

J*

[Guest_4643]

Hey J.

Yeah movies, TV and books are good but I don't watch them and read much. I used to read a bit but I lost interest.

Thanks for being willing to let me know, I hope it goes well. I see my GP tomorrow, I'll update everyone here.

Yeah I'm hesitant about the meds for PTSD, because of blood pressure which is what it's used for. It's successful for Veterans though but still.

My symptoms are ok, I have nightmares occassionally but not recently, just been having funny dreams. I used to have nightmares 2-3 times a night.

[Guest_4643]

What a day.

Saw my GP today. I asked him for a checkup, he checked my blood pressure, I think that was fine. Then he checked my oxygen and breathing on the Stethoscope since like i mentioned, about the cough etc. He said I have Asthma and have me an Inhaler. I'm so stupid I can't even use it properly. I swear I have no IQ. I'm a disgrace.

I got my prescription repeats. I asked him for a referral to the Women's Clinic where I saw my Gynaecologist who was my Surgeon for a Cyst in 2018, regarding the fact that my period was heavy, like 6 pads in 1 hour which is about how much I was losing when I had the Cyst (sorry, TMI), on the 3rd day. I have a bit of pain when my period is over too but that's probably my awful eating habits. So he sent me for an Ultrasound first.

Then he said the Hospital 30 mins away where he referred me to for my bunion won't help me, and another patient who had the same issue, like wth? Is it that hard, even to get an appointment to see if I need surgery or not? I swear no one in this town or nearby wants to help, they handball everything onto everyone else. So he said I can go to the city, I said no, it's 3 hours away and it triggers me. I used to live around there and had bad experiences.

I asked if I can go to a hospital 1 hr & 15 mins away, there were only a couple bad reviews for that one but you get that with any hospital, company, etc. so who knows. Hopefully they can help despite the travelling time. I'm in pain from it.

To top it all off, Mum & I got a Pizza tonight, the place we wanted to go to wasn't open, & another place was too far. So we were desperate & went to another place in town which we've had many times (all the food here is AWFUL), & they have new owners.

They said it would be 20 mins. Nearly 40 mins later. I got up and politely asked them 4 times how long would it be. They were rude & snapped at me. I said it doesn't take that long, we're hungry & it's ridiculous. Half the people were standing there talking & didn't even acknowledge me or even phones ringing. The delivery guy didn't have a mask on & was walking around eating people's food. Surely that's against the law, & OHS?

They didn't use their manners & were rude as soon as I walked in, I should've walked out then. No need to snap when I was polite & just wanted my order. People in this town are so rude, even when you say hi they just glare at you & walk away like you have some infectious disease.

Ugh this town annoys me but idk if I wanna move, & where, etc.

[Guest_4643]

Today was boring. I was home alone since my Parents went to the City for my Mum's appointment so a 3 hour drive. I just coloured in & went online, as usual. Didn't eat all day so I ordered some food delivered, then took my Dog for a walk.