Here we go again

[OhmeOhmy]

I have dealt with depression and anxiety all my life on and off. I understand if so much more now and have so many more tools in my tool box which means that life is generally much better than ever before. However right now I am really struggling and I feel so alone. "The sadness" (what I call is because it is just a deep overwhelming sadness) and the constant gut churning anxiety is back. It just shows up whenever it feels like it out of the blue. It snatches away my resolve and my confidence and leaves me feeling like a vulnerable, frightened child who is alone. When it gets me like this I feel helpless. I know however that I'm not helpless and that there are things I can do to help myself feel better. maybe as human beings we are meant to experience polarities, like hot and cold, happy and sad, so that we can appreciate the difference between the two....

[Peppermintbach]

Hi OhmeOhmy,

A warm welcome to the forums.

You sound so deflated, disheartened and just so exhausted. The anguish really comes across in your writing. I hear you...

Your post really resonated with me as I have struggled with depression and anxiety (predominantly depression with occasional bouts of anxiety) for a large chunk of my life.

When you mentioned the overwhelming sadness, I found myself nodding vigorously in understanding. The sadness that permeates every aspect of your life? It permeates mine too (sighs). Although my sadness doesn't necessarily manifest as vulnerability as in your case- I just feel like a zombie if that makes sense. But still...the overarching emotion is sadness...

Sure, I agree that we experience polarities as humans. Although my 2c- and I understand that not everyone will agree and that's perfectly okay- is I'm not sure if it's necessarily to make us appreciate the difference between the 2 but maybe it's normal to feel a range of emotions. I like to think emotions (generally speaking)exist on a spectrum, you know...

I have appreciated writing to you and reading your post.

Thank you for making me feel less alone.

I hope that you feel a tiny bit less alone by writing here too...hope we hear from you again (only if you wish).

Sending kind thoughts,

Pepper

[Cesca1557]

hi ohmeohmy,

The overwhelming sadness is definitley something that experience myself. I describe it as waves, the wave pushes you under the water of this sadness and sometimes you dont know when you will next surface.and quite often the waves are unexpected and can hit you so so suddenly without realising it or having any time to prepare for it
im glad to hear you do have many more tools for helping with everything, they can help a huge amount however definitley dont fix everything.
you have definitely come to a great place for when you are feeling alone, there are so many lovely people on this forum to give you a bit of company or comfort when you need it

youre positive attitude is a blessing. yes the negative, sad moments arent fun but yes, i like to think that they do help us to better appreciate the happy moments.

[Cesca1557]

It posted before I had finished writing!
All i wanted to say is im here for you whenever you need a chat, and i hope your day is better tomorrow

[blondguy]

Hi OhmeOhmy and everyone

I just posted to your original thread OhmeOhMy. Maybe we can keep all the posters directed to your original thread if thats okay to prevent doubling up. You are more than welcome to change your thread title at anytime. Your original thread has been bumped up and should be on 'New Posts' now 🙂

www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/sunshine-and-fresh-air

My kindest as always

Paul

[Sophie_M]

Hi everyone,

We've closed this thread off as it is running on similar themes to the thread below:

Sunshine and fresh air

Please feel free to continue your conversation in the original thread.