Hi, I can totally relate to you. I find it interesting how you immediately assume there is something wrong with YOU? I'm 60 now and throughout my life and still now, have been alienated especially by women's social groups at work or at functions. People just walk away, or the group magically disperses before my eyes HA. Or I pretend to chuckle along and then drift away in thought.
If you listen to what these social groups are discussing, you might realise the reason we blank out is because we find it boring, non stimulating, and can't even relate to the topic? How often do we need to pretend to be overjoyed at "Mary's" new kitchen? Seriously.
Other times we blank out from over- thinking and becoming anxious over what everyone is thinking of us, so we lose track of the convo. they're having. From there we become increasingly uncomfortable and need to leave, or others feel our vibes and leave us standing alone.
Calmly evaluate what your interests are, what you would talk about enthusiastically, what you like to read/ research or study. Join an online group, like here for starters, and just "talk" openly. As you become more comfortable find an online or public group of interest, say for eg. debating politics, environmental issues and build your own social group around who you really are, with stimulating people who relate to your interests.
Developing anxiety issues because we dont fit into "their" group, wasted a lot of my precious years. Don't do the same. Please embark on a self discovery tour, you might be pleasantly surprised! If that tour needs to stop by at the GP for safety and assurance, then do that first.
