dear Taz, what Tony has said is good advice, but I too want to reinforce that it's important not to stop taking your medication, and can I say, and this may sound to be silly, but as you feel these med's aren't working, there maybe a small % working, not that you feel so, but it seems as though they need to be reviewed by your doctor.
When you talk to your husband you could also raise the issue of looking after his mother over xmas simply because of how you feel.
Siblings are always busy at home, especially if they have young children, but a phone call doesn't take a great effort, however maybe the horse has bolted with her, because if she's not receptive, then unfortunately she won't be much help.
Your workload is intensive, but it is strange that when the grown up kids, like yourself, are around a parent who has terminal cancer, sometimes the person who is suffering from depression seems to find another level, another grade a bit higher and then take control, but this doesn't seem to be happening for you.
I hope that your husband is able to understand how you are feeling, but from he did to you in bed, hug you and then go back to sleep, I have my doubts, I really hope that I am wrong.
Have you been to see your GP yet, and if not then it would be a good idea.
Have a read of Tony's post, and please we would love to hear back from you. L Geoff. x
