Exhausted of feeling nothing

[jbubble]

I don’t really know how to start but I know that today is a pretty bad day for me - despite an outward display of successful functioning (got myself out of bed and I’m at uni).

Basically I am so sick of feeling so apathetic towards everyone and life in general. Nothing is exciting, nothing brings me happiness and I NEVER feel passion. All I do is look forward to going to bed at night. I’m sick of people telling me that “exercise” will help release endorphins, but since suffering adrenal fatigue last year exercise only makes me bed-ridden and physically sick/exhausted for days afterwards, and even if I were to do low intensity exercise I never have the motivation to get up and go. I’ve noticed my appetite dropping lately too but still upset over having put on weight last year.

Also, every antidepressant I’ve tried has done nothing and my current one has actually made me worse I think. Currently waiting to begin psychologist appointments and I’m waiting patiently for the psychiatrist to book me in (no idea how long that will take).

Anybody else had experience with feeling this never-ending lack of passion for life? I constantly feel there is no point in life because we all just die anyway. P.s I don’t intend on suiciding.

Thanks in advance for anyone’s input

Jenna

[Sky31]

I feel the perfect thing for you to take a look at is Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. Basically it’s a pyramid and at the bottom are the basic things such as “Are you getting food & water?”, Do you have shelter and so on. Then you work your way up the pyramid through financial stability, friendships and so on and if you get to the top, then you are able to achieve full happiness in life.

At one point in my life I was in a really bad job (I won’t go into the details), I hated being alive because of it and I had no passion to help others. The moment I left that job, my life changed and has continued to change. My life goal is now to adopt and/or provide foster care to as many children as I can throughout my lifetime. I’ve yet to start this due to financially still preparing myself for it so I can do so without a job, simply living off my own investments so I can give those children the full attention they deserve.

The point being is that you sometimes have to first attend to your own needs before you are open to others and can start feeling passion. Find the point you are at in the pyramid and see what you can do to work your way up over the coming months and years. Don’t force goals upon yourself, explore your options and let passion find you when the time is right.

Good Luck, Hugs!