Hi welcome
You have every reason to feel overwhelmed.
Its a good move to post here to get other opinions, and its clear to me where you need guidance.
PERSPECTIVE- say you and mum are at a park, she gives you money to buy lunch. Upon your return you trip and fall, ruining the food. Guilt arrives because your mum has lost $30. You cry. She consoles you. She gives you more money and you have lunch. During lunch birds feed off the food on the ground. Lessons learned-
- Humans make mistakes
- Your best is good enough
- You allowed mum to rest while at the shop- you're a good person
- You both fed the birds
All these fact have a positive importance. But positivity is a frame of mind as is worry and motivation. How do you get it? Once you become positive you'll never return. Every negative has a positive but you have to find it- eg you fed the birds. Humour also has its benefits.
You can use time weekly to focus on how to motivate yourself.
Google these, just read the first post
Beyondblue worry worry worry
Beyondblue the best praise youll ever get
Beyondblue 30 minutes can change your life
Google - prem rawat maharaji YouTube... he has many videos including - sunset, all is well, the perfect instrument... watch one daily.
Im impressed how youre so appreciative of your mum. Little thankyous like a note left in the fridge is enough to show it. Also try to be realistic, if you've done your best and cant follow through with education, life demands you be kind to yourself.
Friends come and go
Like the ocean ebb and flows
But your wisdom piles up
It will only grow
You are special and its true
Believe, you're true blue
You will be golden to kids too
Like how your mum is to you
Reply anytime
TonyWK
