Battling the thoughts all day

Chris D · ‎01-03-2014

I am home alone and really struggling at the moment. I have been battling the thoughts all day and none of my safety tools have worked. I really don't know wat else to do. Really lost and going down with every passing hr i feel.

I am scared that i am going to do something but something has always stopped me, i don't know what that something is. I know i go into hospital on monday but i'm just so lost and feel i have being deserted by my family, friends, cousins i let them all know what i am going through and none of them have been msging me or being in contact with me. Why? I thought when you are down u seek support from those groups of people, obviously i was wrong again.

Don't deserve any happiness or anything for that matter. I'm a lost cause i feel. Forget it.

Chris

Suzbj · ‎01-03-2014

Hi Chris,

You deserve all the happiness in the world! I know you are going to hospital on Monday. What is happening tonight to make you feel as you are? You've written that none of your family etc have contacted you - is that what has brought you down tonight? I'm sorry, I don't know a lot about you. I have seen your posts to a few other people.

cheers

Suz 🙂

Suzbj · ‎01-03-2014

PS: And you are NOT a lost cause!! You matter like we all do. I've read stuff that you have posted to others and all that you have written that empowers other people belongs to you too! x

Guest_3712 · ‎01-03-2014

Hey Chris,

so sorry you are feeling so low and I'm guessing you are going through so many emotions right now. Hospital is a daunting prospect on one hand but also holds that element of hope as well, but that doesn't help you right now.

I know you are feeling deserted by your friends and family - maybe they don't know how to respond. Most people don't you know. It still scares them- mental illness, psychiatric care/ hospital.

Very recently I am beginning to understand that this is their problem not mine. I am not going to continue to hang my head in shame because others are uncomfortable dealing with my illness.

Chris I know hospital will bring you some answers and hopefully some peace but until then if you really feel bad ring the support line and have a talk with someone.

Good luck to you

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

Jo3 · ‎02-03-2014

Chris,

I wish there was a way for everyone on here to meet. Because we both need a hug and so does everyone else for that matter.

Chris, I am thinking of you and how you started that thread for me, just for me. How touching that was, I really don't feel I deserve it.

But Chris, when you're in hospital tomorrow I will be thinking of you and sending you positive vibes for health, wealth and joy. You deserve it Chris.

Remember that you have me and others on here supporting you and wishing you well.

Pls keep in touch next week only if you can and feel up to it.

Thinking of you this following week, pls take care

Your friend

Jo xx

Neil_1 · ‎02-03-2014

Hi Chris

Of course you deserve happiness ... don't ever doubt that.

Mate, I'm guessing that is your photo in the pic underneath your name. Now this is coming from a person with a staunch background of heterosexuality (not that there's anything wrong with that), but mate, you're a good looking guy. In that photo I also see you grinning away and seeming to be pretty damn happy. I could be wrong, but I also see someone who looks like they workout ... man, you look huge up top! 🙂

And I don't know why I've only just seen this post ... I was here earlier today and could have sworn that I didn't see it ... or that it basically wasn't here; but I see that Chris posted this some 19 hours ago, and Suz chipped in pretty much straight away and then Stressless about an hour later. Little ol' me didn't see this till not too long ago. Oh well, the important thing is it has been seen and Chris, I so hope that your Sunday went along much better for you than what Saturday night did.

Chris, will you be contactable on here during your hospital stay? You never know though, you might want to stay away from us for a few days? And is there any idea for how long you might be at the facility for?

Cheers

Neil

Jo3 · ‎02-03-2014

Hey Chris my friend

I replied earlier today but it's not on here. Don't know why.

Chris, you are not alone because I am here with you as well as all our other friends on here. We all care about you and you deserve so much happiness.

I hope that you will be able to still talk to us on here while you're in hospital, but if not that's okay; it may be good for you to have a break and focus on you, your health and wellbeing.

Chris, I want to say to you that I am thinking of you this week while you're away. Pls take care and remember us on here; we are all thinking of you and sending you our best wishes.

Sending you a huge hug

Your friend

Jo