Hi there, my name is Sarah. This is my first time on beyond blue, i have
had Anxiety and Depression on and off since i was 16, i am now 31. At
the moment i am feeling like that my life is a mess, i can't concentrate
on anything, work, study, day to d...
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Hi there, my name is Sarah. This is my first time on beyond blue, i have
had Anxiety and Depression on and off since i was 16, i am now 31. At
the moment i am feeling like that my life is a mess, i can't concentrate
on anything, work, study, day to day life. I am single, no kids, no
house, no real savings, have a full time job, amazing friends and an
extremely close relationship with my family. I have had amazing
experiences in my life i have travelled been to many music festivals
(which is one of the great loves in my life). I have a great support
network yet i still feel like i can't get through this down time again.
I am in a relationship (if you can call it that) that has been going on
and off for the last 3 months and it's taking its toll on me. One minute
he's all keen and the next he's not. I can see a future with us, i want
a future with us. He has said he has feelings for me and a connection
like no other. At this stage he is taking time out to decide if he wants
to build a life together or be on his own. Relationships have always
made me anxious. At the moment i feel depressed, i am crying all the
time just randomly, i am constantly thinking about the "relationship"
and him, 'why doesn't he want to be with me, does he want to be with me?
Is he going to see other people? What if he finds someone else?'. I know
this thought pattern and head chatter is not healthy and is creating my
anxiety, yet i cannot stop myself. I worry about not finding that
special someone. I am seeing a psychologist at the moment, but i cannot
even concentrate on the sessions, i am listening to what he is saying
and what processes i need to do to stop the head chatter, i want to stop
it but i just can't make myself. I have also just started taking
supplements after a recommendation from my naturopath, hopefully this
may help. I am at a loss, i hate feeling like this, i hate crying all
the time, i know i am better than that but i can't pull myself out of
the hole. Thought's and similar experiences and any advice would be
great.