Denial of depression

[Jess-E]

In 2011 I had a severe health scare...almost died. in 2012 i lost my job of 6+ years to an awful accusation that could not be proved. There are times where i have the why me mind set and sometimes i am just bawling and curled up in a heap and sometimes driving...which can be dangerous. I have being telling myself for a while that its healthy to get it out. But now its turning into a daily occurance, not yet in public or in front of family and friends but its there. I even get the sometimes feeling of if my nephew wasn't born when he was i might have done the unthinkable. But know i could never go through with it. (here comes the tears again). I have also have the dreaded insomnia. i am so damn tired, so tired. Am i just having a bit of a sook of have i got depression.

[jess334]

Hi JessEyre

You are not being a sook.  What you have described is classic symptoms of depression.  Go and speak to your GP, they will be able to do some tests and discuss medications or seeing a psychologist.  

Also, it might help to speak to one of your friends or family about it.  I only told my mum and my boyfriend, but it is really helpful to have someone you can text or call when you are feeling really bad.  Support people are great because you cant always speak to your Dr or psychologist.  

Its always scary to admit that you have a problem, but I was surprised by how supportive my mum and boyfriend were.  

Good luck, 

Jess

[Dennis38]

Hello JessEyre,

I 100 percent agree with jess334, you are not being a sook in the least bit you are describing depression to a tee. Now the insomnia is not helping you in the least bit so you really need to go and talk to your GP about this, even if you have to take a sleeping pill (I have had to do that myself) sleep will help you so long as you are only taking the pills when you are not sleeping, I asked the counciler I was talking to limit the amount of sleeping pills I had as I found it way to tempting to pop one of those little pills and sleep the day away instead of facing my demons.

Talk to your GP and see what they say and remember you have a group of people here that know what you are going though so feel free to talk to us.

[Jess-E]

Thankyou both for your replies. It's good to hear that its more than having a sook. I will certainly be talking to my gp about it. i think he has picked up on it in the last few weeks. But i always try to put on a happy face around people. i also think its been on and off since high school. Being the second child of the family i always believe that my parents compared me and my sister to each other (sister is 1 and a 1/2 years apart). Then my sister came out and said she didnt want to get married. She married in 2010 and my nephew came in september 2011. i always wanted the wedding and kid thing (still possible but kids are unlikely).

thanks again.

Jess

[vip]

Hi Jess stop doubting yourself too who knows marriage and kids are probably on the cards for you never say never. Glad you are seeing your gp dont label yourself as being a sook you are suffering with depression an illness all of us have on this forum ao we all totally understand you. And dont compare yourself to your sister everyone has their problems so your sister is not perfect. You need a gp medication and a visitation with a psych to start your recovery so goodluck with it all and take care.

[geoff]

dear Jess, sometimes there is a spark in us that tells us that 'it's healthy to get out of depression', but it's never a strong light, that's why I call it a spark, so we need help along the way, because if you don't get any assistance from a professional the only way is down, and literally your feet will be embedded into concrete, so you can't move.

By the way you have posted your comment it doesn't seem as though you are any medication, and hopefully your doctor will be able to rectify your situation. L Geoff. x