Dear Pinkgold~
Having other people at work making disparaging comments is a horrible thing. It taints everything and does make one want to avoid it all and give up. Reporting a person is not easy, and the follow up with mangers plus strained relations as a result is an unfair burden to have to go thorough. Still you have done it now, which is great, not only for you but others this person may have tormented.
Getting older can be very worrying in itself, particularly if you rely upon a wage and things will be impossible if the work comes to an end. Having to finish because one has reached a certain age or is less physically capable is a huge problem. Even simply being one of the oldest in the room can be isolating too.
I may be wrong but other people's misbehavior can be harder to take if one is already in a vulnerable frame of mind (I'm not belittling what happened to you in any way). Ability to cope and see people for what they are can become less. By the sound of it the whole matter is looming large in your life and things are pretty miserable as a result. If you have to already done so do you think it might be worth going to you doctor and saying what is happening to you? Medical support can only be a good thing.
Do you have people to support you? Family or friends to talk with who care and want to help you get though this? When in a bad state I've had my partner, and that made all the difference. Also at work, is there anyone to look after your welfare? Some firms have a welfare officer or similar, and sometimes it is simply someone that is sympathetic. Going though things at work alone is very hard.
You are not alone, we are here for you
Croix
