Why me????? I hate OCD!!!

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I have contamination OCD.... I just feel like the last 5 months have been one big blur. I am constantly stressed, I honestly cant think of a time Im not stressed, even asleep its taking over. Today was a bad day, coming out from school drop off and there was wet, fresh blood on the path I dont know if I walked in it but in my mind I have somehow because others may have therefore its everywhere including on my shoes. I was supposed to be going to my first yoga type class but I just couldnt as the fear of it being on me I just needed to go home and shower and clean everything. Whats worse though is I couldnt clean it I just couldnt go near it so my partner had to, which he does but truly HATES doing it. He believes I should and I get that but I was already in a state of panic I just couldnt face it. What is the "normal"way to handle this??? I just feel like Ive lost all sense of reality and what is a "normal"way to react. I mean it was blood, near a school, near my children!!! I try and think what I wouldve done prior to OCD being so in my face but I dont know because I probably wouldnt have seen it and if I did just walked around it. How do I stop this, Im exhausted, my marriage is falling apart Im just leeting everyone down, including myself.

[ci]

Thanks keeping positive

I'm sorry today is a bad day. Ocd gp cruel for me today is one of those days things keep triggering me I feel like I'm getting past one thing and another happens. Feels like someone playing a cruel joke.

I to am waiting to see a doc that treats naturally my app in 2 weeks I'm holding out all hope that it works sounds like you doing the same.

I hope things get better today for you

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Hi,

Im doing the same hoping so much that this will be the answer to help me past this, and yep its like a vicious cycle something small can trigger it then it just keeps going.. 😞 Today I went to buy some cream but there was something red on it so of course to me its blood and its contaminated with hiv and because I touched it and I was out I had to drive home before I could wash my hands so now everything is contaminated with it.. Exhausting!!! I have spent what should have been a relaxing child free day completely stressed and on the computer looking up all kinds of scenarios.. I hope things go well for you with your drs appointment... Let me know how you find it.

[ci]

If it helps just know you not alone I do that all the time. Yesterday went with my kids to play center red stain on the floor I freaked out cause my daughter was near it and not sure if she touched it. Everyone home to wash!

My husband pointed out all the other coloured stains but red freaks me out what if it's blood.

It's hard to live like this but I'm determined as you sound to find a way to get better. I'm sorry you had such a horrible day especially when it was a child free one that's not how a day with out kids should be😣. You deserve a break on those days.

[keeping_positive]

Hi ci,

Yes it does make me feel better knowing Im not alone.. Everyone else I either hide it from or those who do know just dont get it... I was supposed to head out for a girls night tonight but I bailed just couldnt face it, I was stressing all the what ifs which I never used to do but these past 6 months it increasingly has got worse. I avoid shops, playgrounds, everything really that I dont HAVE to actually do, especially with the kids but now even on my own, I feel like its very quickly getting worse and consuming me.. I have to believe it will not win though... I have got a drs app this week (normal gp) and Im completely freaked out and trying to come up with every reason not to go... But a positive I have an appointment with the nutrtional therapist/gp in two weeks... Have you had your appointment yet? If so how did you go?

[ci]

My app is next week I'll let you know how it goes.

My ocd did the same it progressed and consumed me so fast before I knew it I had isolated myself from all my friends and was finding it hard to leave the house. It's a struggle but I try and push myself everyday to make sure I leave the house and go to shops do the things I need to do if few days of not going near shop goes past it so much harder to go when I have to. It's hard to find that balance though cause some days I just need to give myself a rest and stay home where it's safe if that makes sense. Good luck with your app

[ci]

Hi keeping positive

Had my app today getting bloods done and back to see doc in 5 weeks. So far I'm impressed and I've got some hope for first time in ages. She told me to look up bio balance australia. I haven't done it yet.

Hope your app goes well for you.

How have you been?

[ci]

Hi keeping positive Had my app today getting bloods done and back to see doc in 5 weeks. So far I'm impressed and I've got some hope for first time in ages. She told me to look up bio balance australia. I haven't done it yet. Hope your app goes well for you.How have you been

[keeping_positive]

Hi ci that is excellent news. So glad you are feeling positive about it. Have they said or suggested other tests they may look at after the blood results. I follow the bio balance aus page on facebook. Its where I was able to find the dr Im going to who practices in natural/nutritional medicines. Another one to google is mensah medical their website is great and their you tube videos are very helpful and informative. I have my appointment next week. I did have a norm gp app this week which i was extremely proud that I went. Again so good to hear how positive you are feeling.

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I so read that as have you been not how have you been. Ive been better I took your advice and have made myself stop in at places everyday this week. Not with the kids besides school and after school sports but still proud that im there and I didnt find myself looking at the ground the ENTIRE time. Obviously far from better but im feeling ok. Thank you.

[ci]

I'm so glad you are doing better and it is helping you to go out everyday it has helped me too.

Dealing with ocd is unbelievably hard and being a mum with ocd makes things even harder. You are so strong don't forget that.

Bad day for me yesterday but fingers crossed a better one today. Got my middle one home sick always effects my ocd when they sick.