Trying to accept anxiety

Gretskiez_ · ‎01-01-2021

I first got diagnosed with anxiety in August. And since have been seeing a psychologist, I try to use the techniques they’ve given me to cope. But I find it so difficult. There are different levels of anxiety, sometimes I just have mild and I can cope with the techniques I’ve learnt. Then I suffer major anxiety and nothing seems to help me. I suffer panic attacks, and what I think is health anxiety because my brain tells me there is something wrong with my heart, or that I have MS. On Tuesday I decided to try antidepressants that my GP prescribed, but they sent me into a major panic, and I almost went into hospital, I was sick for two days. This was incredibly upsetting for me because I have a 3 year old and a 19month old. I hate that they have to see me struggle, crying, vomiting, having no patience, etc. since Tuesday my anxiety has been eating me alive, I have felt derealisation. I can’t eat, I feel so lightheaded and dizzy. I don’t want to live life like this, I hate anxiety, I hate that I can’t control it, and it really scares me that it’s going to have a terrible impact on my young children. I just am finding it so hard to accept that I have anxiety, and that it’s here to stay.
I’m so scared that medications aren’t going to be able to help me, I’m just fearful of so much, and that’s because of my anxiety.

Truc · ‎02-01-2021

Hi Gretskiez_

I don't know what you are anxious about recently, I am just here to share my tips as I used to overcome my own anxiety and overthinkin, I think it may help you somehow, and of course anxiety is barely fun. Before, I always think what if this happens or that happens will lead to my family broke because we were once before, not just that, I think so many things ridiculous and also many of them I would say 0.009 percent it would happen. so now to cope with my anxiety I always have 2 things to think about. Firstly, that is my identity, what is the identity, I know who I am, I know what is my responsibilty, I know what I have to do for my family for my friends colleagues..etc for example, I defined myself as a musician, so whether I earn money or not, I do not really care, I will still be a musician, if it does not earn me any money or I did not become famous, I will take a second job to sustain myself, because I want to be a musician but not to be famous or anything else, and that is how I define myself to get rid of overthinking and anxieties about my life. Secondly, when something wrong happened, I put myself into the worst scenario, if I am still alive then everything is good to me, because there are people in developing countries who are starving and dying every day, I think even I lost a house in a developed country I can still have welfare and goverment care temporarily to get back on the ground. By using those 2 methods to think, I know what I am doing even if it may misdirect a little bit, I know I can still drive it in order because I know my own identity. it may be abstract but if you read a few more times you will get what I mean. I hope it is helpful

Chris120292 · ‎02-01-2021

I’m struggling to navigate this appropriately as I was after some more immediate support but I was too late. Anxiety often sends me into a spiral of depression. The problem being, anything good that’s challenging often sends me into a state of serotonin deprivation that can cause a serious rabbit hole. I’ve gotten to the point tonight where something in me is trying to play with the idea of suicide. I couldn’t do it. But I’m just having a really hard time right now and I’d really like someone to talk to. I can’t sleep. I usually turn to alcohol but I’m really trying not to. If anyone is awake right now and would like to talk I’d really appreciate it. Thank you.

Sophie_M · ‎02-01-2021

Hey Chris,

Welcome to Beyond Blue forums. We are so grateful you have reached out here tonight and taken the brave step in connecting here. We are so sorry to hear you are struggling with some very heavy feelings and thoughts tonight. You are in a safe, non-judgmental space where our wonderful community members will be able to provide you with the support and insight you need. We are also reaching out to you privately to offer additional support.

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We would really encourage you to speak with a friendly, caring counselor to talk through what you are experiencing. Sometimes it can be very hard trying to find our way out of the 'rabbithole' on our own, or at least it can feel easier if someone is there to listen to us and perhaps shine a light that we might have difficulty finding on our own.

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