Trigger Foods

[JoyBlackbird]

Not sure where to put this but this felt best

6 months ago I went to a 2 month camp trip where I lived with 7 other people. 3 of those 7 people bullied me everyday by constantly commenting on the way I ate, how much I ate and much more. They even had a list of foods I wasn't allowed to eat, these foods were mostly fatty foods such as avo, yogurt, etc. 

After 2 months of bullying I came home extremely underweight with lots of self-image issues. To this day, I struggle with eating food, especially avocado's and yogurt. (Which ironically used to be my comfort food) 

I am happy to say now I am at a healthy weight but still sometimes struggle with self-image. Today, I tried eating avocado toast! However, massive feelings of guilt and anxiety filled me while eating it. 

Some days are really bad but most days are good.

Might keep updating on my progress, depends how I feel.

Thanks for this safe space,

Joy

[Sophie_M]

Hey JoyBlackbird

First of all: Welcome! We are so glad that you have found this space to share what you are going through. The bullying that you experienced is truly awful. No one deserves to go through something like that. It is completely understandable that this would hurt your self-esteem. You have clearly put in a great deal of work to get to where you are today and that is something that you should certainly feel proud of.
 
While you have made amazing progress, it can take time for all of those feelings to go away. This is perfectly normal – it can take a good amount of time to recover from hard times.
 
Hopefully others within our lovely community can chime in with their own experiences and support, too. If you ever feel like talking about concerns relating to body image or eating, please do not hesitate to call/webchat the Butterfly Foundation: https://butterfly.org.au/get-support/helpline/.
 
We hope this can be a safe and supportive space for you. We are glad to have you here 😊
 
Kind regards
Sophie M