Hi viper. Sorry to hear about your mum. It would've been a comfort knowing you were there at the end. My mum died 21 years ago, in N.Z. I had seen her a few years earlier. I wasn't there, didn't even know she had passed till the police informed me. I felt guilty for the feeling of 'not being there', but I have accepted that everything happens for a reason. I realise it's hard for you with a daughter who refuses to acknowledge, as well as a son. They both sound excessively selfish, don't accept guilt for this. As I said in an earlier post, you did your best, you are not responsible for their attitudes. In some ways you may be better off without them in your life. I realize that sounds harsh, but, if they are the sort that are quite intolerant about your disabilities, and refuse to help you anyway, it would be no benefit having them in your life. Some people are hopeless when it comes to helping those who are unable to help themselves. They become impatient and disrespectful. Good on you, getting into your garden, I find with me I read a lot. Everyone needs to have a way of dealing with hurts, gardening, watching t.v, listening to music, reading. Extremely therapeutic and rewarding watching your garden reap, flower etc.
Lynda
