so much pain

[Mental_as]

I feel like i cannot handle the anxiety anymore as much as i try it tears me away from society an my family. I spend lots of time hiding away. Its all to much.i feel like im going crazy help 😞 

[Chicken_Wings]

Nope, they didn't think I was a loon, nobody even noticed in the end. I had to tell someone I wasn't ok before anyone clicked. My boyfriend noticed, but that's cause he knows me and my quirks.

Ya know people stare at people all the time. Doesn't mean he was noticing any good weird. He probably would have stared no matter what.

what tv show are you watching? What game were you playing on your phone?

[Chicken_Wings]

Also, you're not mental. Like you said, if you were properly insane you wouldn't know you were. 

But you are aware of yourself and your mind. 

[Mental_as]

Im watching a shark doco an the game on my phone was bmx kid where your on a bicycle an have to jump over stuff to collect stars an trophies. Its not bad. Yeah i know ppl always stare but i just get so uncomfortable. Its something ive for 12 years an just never seems to get better..

[Chicken_Wings]

I swam with sharks once. Was bananas scared but it was in an aquarium and ended up not being as scary as I thought. What was more scary was the huge turtles.
Did you know that to conserve oxygen sea turtles don't have continuous vision. They sort of take a photograph every 30 seconds. If anything in moves in that 30 seconds, they'll bump into it!

The game sounds fun. I like ones where it takes a little bit of skill, not just dumb luck.
I used to play one that was sort of a combination of numbers and colours and you had to match them. But I can't remember the name.

Have you got any pets? Hanging out with pets are a great way to relax.

[Gruffudd]

Sorry Matt, v/line is our rather tired transport system in country Victoria, takes about 5 hours to get to Melbourne by train if there are no problems so there is plenty of time... 

I have been dealing with both depression and anxiety for most of my life. I don't think it gets easier in the middle of anxiety but it does help to remember that it will go away for a time too. I think one of the best things I did was recognising the cycle and started working on things that help take the edge off it. 

That video sounds interesting. Perhaps I should watch such a thing whilst attending to the dishwasher that I have been avoiding.

[Mental_as]

Thats interesting about the sea turtles. I never knew that. Im watching about monkeys on tv now, must be nature night an then got 48 hours an american crime show with real life crimes either solved or unsolved.

[Mental_as]

I could never avoid dishwaher id get ocd about it. Do u still get anxious. I find that mine is always bad. Whatever i do. Even when im not thinking about it i notice i shake or something. Horrible feeling 😞

[Chicken_Wings]

how good is 48 hours! I think I've watched almost every episode.

It sounds like you're doing the right things. Keep doing the things and tomorrow you can talk to your psych about whats going on at the moment.

I don't know if it will help, but the Headspace app has some ten minute exercises which might help you. Its free unless you want to subscribe and you can do each of the ten minute exercises as many times as you want.
Sometimes I do it in the morning to help me be calm at the beginning of the day. Sometimes I do it to go to sleep because it is relaxing.

Give it a try.

[Gruffudd]

Yes, I get anxious about getting anxious. Then think everyone wants the worst for me. 

Depression is way stronger and happens at the same time, that is probably why the dishwasher is there waiting and I am feeling anxious but doing nothing. Still, the dishwasher is now on after eight and a half hours of thinking about it. That is a win of sorts.

[HelenM]

Hi m a

I don't really have any advice I can give you. But I wanted to pop on and say I'm thinking of you and hope things pick up soon

Helen