Post Exam Anxiety

Sunflower26 · ‎24-04-2019

hey there, i just sat my chartered accountant exam yesterday. I know that i performed poorly, despite studying a lot. I knew the content, but just made silly mistakes crumbling under the time pressure. I feel riddled with anxiety and despair. I have not slept all night, knowing that i will have to re sit it in june. I feel overwhelmingly disappointed. Having never failed an exam through VCE or university I feel lost and terrified about what is to come. I have a few days off before i return to work, but am so disappointed in my self; I just want to quit everything. Even putting away all my practice notes and exam papers is making me feel ill. I cannot bare to touch them.

Im not sure how to dig myself out of this hole. I am fortunate enough to have parents who love me unconditionally as well as a brother and boyfriend who have been a god sent. However this is my own battle and unfortunately i am the only one able to dig myself out.

I just dont have the strength at the moment, i feel mentally exhausted. I have cried big ugly tears over the last 24 hours. My thoughts go round and round in circles saying why didnt you write this and notice that. Im afraid of what my colleagues will think of me. But at the same time i know many managers have also failed this exam. The pass rate in the prior year was 67%. Hence I am not the first or last person to fail. However i feel like my world is crumbling around me.

I guess my biggest issue now is that, i have to wait 3 weeks before i receive my results. And then after this I will need to find the strength to hit the books again.

Life feels so stressful. Im not sure I even want to be an accountant anymore. Is all this stress even worth it? the long hours are exhausting. Do i like what im doing? im not sure. How can i ? im only in my early twenties.

I miss my old smilingly self. Looking for guidance and anyone that has sat exams before and failed. How do you forgive yourself for making a mistake and find the strength to do it again.

quirkywords · ‎24-04-2019

Hi Sunflower,

I am sorry you are worked up about your results and I am sure many people reading this can relate to you.

I have not passed( I will not use the other word) exams, I have passed exams that I worried about so much until the results came out that I made myself sick.

Sunflower the only person who knows the results will be the people who mark the paper.

If you find out you did not pass, you will need to deal with that.

If you do pass and you get yourself into a very anxious state and cry for 3 weeks, you will be exhausted .

have found that all the worrying and what if, and if only and going over the exam in my head, never changes the result.

I think maybe waiting for your result before you decide your future.

I am not sure if you are working, or if you can just take a day or two to unwind and spoil yourself. You have studied well worked hard and I think you deserve a little break of doing something you enjoy.

These are just some of my thoughts and ideas and you may have different thoughts.

Thanks for sharing this post with us.

Quirky