Dear Tikichilli8~
Welcome back, I've read your thread abut drama from a couple of years ago and would not be surprised if the two and other things are related.
You say yourself you have very high expectations, which means to try for and achieve excellent results academically and in some other areas too. You also mention such things as panic attacks and silly mistakes when faced with matters that seem beyond your ability to handle. Not because those things are intrinsically difficult, but due to pressure and uncertainty.
Do I understand correctly?
You mention parents and teachers , peers and family all have high expectations. plus you tend to shyness.
May I suggest you consider talking to your doctor about all this? Panic attacks and inability to concentrate might be link to anxiety, as might an inability to do things properly in stressful situations.
I know when I get stressed (I have an anxiety condition with a couple of other things) I too find it hard to do familiar things or remember what I need.
If I remember you said you were not close to your dad. How about your mum, is she back? How do you get on with her? Is there anyone in your family or a freind you can be close with and talk about how you feel? Some personal support can make things easier.
Finally as an educator I'd say in an exam or test do the easy questions first, it gives confidence and a practice effect. Practice everything you did in your driving test until you can do it without thinking. If you can get the overall levels of anxiety and stress down in your life you may not react as strongly in these situations.
You are welcome here anytime
Croix
