Pending legal woes and anxiety/depression

[nash1984]

I recently got picked up having 4 capsules at a pub. It's my first offence. Since this I've been spiralling hard. I was already having anxiety issues on daily basis. I can never relax. Feel like I'm faking my way through life. I lost my father to suicide in 2018. I keep thinking of every worst case scenario while I wait for court summons. I used to take drugs a bit when I was younger but not so much recent years. I have a daughter who is 1.5 years old. I find it hard to even look her in the face. I feel like a bad father now. I'm worried about my reputation now in the community. I think about suicide and what would be best way of doing it but I dont think it's an overwhelming sense I'm going to do it.  More casual like what if but I do feel like any other major events I'm not sure how I would cope. I find it hard to sleep sometimes.  I cant relax. My chest is always tight with worry. Just curious if anyone else has been through something similar

[Sophie_M]

Hey nash1984,  

Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. We can understand how difficult it must be at the moment condering the legal stress you are going through, and we really appreciate you being open and sharing what's going on for you right now. 
 
Is there anyone that you feel able to discuss this in person with? We’re reaching out to you to check you’re ok. In the meantime, we’d encourage you to give the Beyond Blue counsellors a call on 1300 22 4636 or speak to them on webchat here. 
 
If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. That might mean connecting with existing supports, following a safety plan, or you could connect with Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero).  
 
We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you, and we’re sure they’ll spot your post soon enough and have some kind words and understanding for you.  

Kind regards,  

Sophie M