Hi Italianstallion91,
Welcome to the beyondblue forum. It is great that you are reaching out the forum pages. You will find some support in regards to your symptoms and by searching 'OCD in the search feature where you will find many threads about other peoples experience with the difficult symptoms of OCD.
It is difficult to get a clear picture of how to support you as you haven't provided much detail of your symptoms i.e. how long you have had them for, have you sought help previously.
Being concerned about becoming paralysed so much that it is making you mentally exhausted sounds really stressful. This is a great time to get some professional support if you haven't done so already. Some people don't think that they are sick enough to see a psychologist or counsellor but in reality, getting help early leads to better and faster healing. One way to do this is to make an appointment with your GP and get a mental health care plan so you can access psychological support. If you already have a counsellor or psychologist that you visit, it would be a great idea to make an appointment with them.
Another option could be to contact the beyondblue support line on 1300 22 4636 and chat to the operators about your symptoms as they may be able to gain a better understanding of your situation and be more targeted in where to go to learn some effective coping strategies.
Dealing with anxiety and having ruminative thinking (thoughts that go round and round and round) is common. OCD is far less common and generally requires some more specific and intensive support. In any case, talking with a counsellor or psychologist would help you define the best coping strategies for your symptoms and create a plan for when your thinking becomes worse like it is now.
Wishing you the best possible outcome,
Nurse Jenn
