Hello Nightwing, and welcome to the site.
When people decide to use meditation it may very well be the answer, but there are times it could produce negative side-effects, that affect your emotions, loss of motivation and relive your traumatic memories and cause your well being not to become any better, so I'm unable to use this type of recovery and do try other ways.
I'm not necessarily saying it's worth, because many people benefit from it and psych's also recommended it, so their belief is that it does work, however, when a psychologist told me that I should be walking around the block as it would improve my depression, I couldn't just because I had no inclination nor any strength to be able to do it, just saying.
To meditate you need to think about what inspires you that can spark some creativity and if you cry it's a way of releasing emotion and cleansing yourself, but you have to be focused and if you aren't able to do this then there are other ways that can draw your attention away and do what suits you.
Best wishes.
Geoff.
