Life is so hard right now

[Booklover17]

Hi

Haven’t posted in a while but really struggling. In lockdown, have anxiety, live alone, can’t participate in singles bubble and going through a divorce. Anytime I have a conversation with someone it’s always like “well talk to you later.” I just wish just one person would stop saying this and just talk to me for a bit longer. I fee so lonely right now. It’s not like I can tel my friends/ family how I am feeling - they don’t get it and have not checked in with me at all - they seem to be unaware or don’t want to ask how I am really doing. I just want someone to talk to me.

[Snaedis]

Hi Booklover17,

Hope you have been doing better. I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I completely understand how you feel. I am in a very similar situation with my "friends". Makes you feel not good but PLEASE DON'T BLAME YOURSELF. I know how hard it is to believe because I surely don't but trust me there's nothing wrong with you. Yes maybe new friends is something you need but don't be hard on yourself. Think of it as universe's way of guiding you away from wrong people. Always here if you need xxx

[George_K]

Hi Booklover
First off, awesome name - bookworms for the win : )

Is it that you're after protracted human discourse about how you're feeling and life in general, or an outlet for dialogue or debate with others?

If it's the latter, might online forums be an option? I probably fall more on the anti-social side of the scale - very occasional emails\messages to friends overseas (sometimes a month or more between contacts, but that goes both ways - we're solid), last saw 'local' RL friends ... erm 2020 (?!?) - probably overdue to drop them a line (again we're solid), but do have regular contact with family so my situation and what suits me may not suit you at all. To be honest I'm spending a lot of time with my nose in ebooks - Kindle Unlimited, though high quality writing is really hard to find, or else I'm just fussier than most.

Amongst other online activity, I participate in a SF&F forum - though much of the debate happens in a political subforum, or occasionally a humo(u)r subforum (sadly American misspelling dominates on the site). If you're not into politics or SF&F that obviously wouldn't suit (!!!) but could online activity function as a partial alternative?

Hope this isn't too way off base and is somewhat useful.