Letting those I love trigger my self doubt and anxiety help please

[yarnartisan]

So recovering from a bad depressive and anxiety episode. Last year I had acute stress disorder as a result of a series of work injuries ,burn out and dealing with workers comp and the govt organisation I work with. Long story short I chose to move to less stressful. Position at a lower rate of pay as I was no longer physically or mentally able to cope with my previous job. I was offered a payout to compensate for the lower wage. Despite urging from others including my sister to pursue this legally to get more money and more medical coverage for my mental health issues after a long discussion with my husband and from what I have observed has happened to others who chose to legally challenge the govt dept .they never seem to win and or ruin their health in the process. So we chose to sign off my worker.s comp and take the payout. Through out that time my sister although supportive,felt I should take it further and was giving in..

  Now she,s just arrived back firm being away overseas and in a chat on the phone asked how I.d been. I explained and again she said is this time off covered by workers comp blah blah. I know she loves me but she also makes me feel a wimp for not fighting harder. But I just can't cope with anymore and she's bought back all my self doubt  and I am feeling so sad and pathetic and that bloody lump in my throat, bot no able to cry. You know that feeling?

i'm 52 years old why do I still let her get to me like this? Why does her opinion or judgement matter when I know logically that she doesn't understand what I have ?      I know what is best for my health I have to make that choice can't she let me be.

Can someone out there help me get some proportion on this please

yarnartisan.

[Doolhof]

Hi Yarnartisan,

Thanks for your post. I understand the Work Cover issues you will have experienced. I know the system is there to assist you, but it can certainly be a very hard and difficult road to travel at times.

For me, I decided to leave my work place and the Work Cover "ride" for my own health and sanity, so I can comprehend that. You have chosen the path that seems right for you, and that is all you can do.

People can offer all kinds of advice and suggestions. They are generally well meaning, it is just easy to feel hurt by some people.

We all have different ways of looking at life and coping with the situations we find ourselves in.

Unfortunately for one reason or another, some people do push our buttons more than others!

For me it is a case of trying to work out why?

Do I feel jealous of that person? Am I angry with them? Do I feel like I need to forgive them for something or they should apologise to me for an offense? I need to really think what it is that is bugging me!

I try to find a sense of peace and forgiveness. I don't actually go up to the person a and say "I forgive you" as some people would treat me like a real nutter if I did that! Ha. Ha.

I do it in my heart and in my mind. I let go of what is hurting me...or at least try and move on.

Hope some of this helps! Cheers for now from Lauren