Thanks Gloria, I appreciate it a lot. My uni does have a lot of resources and services available to students, yes. As said in my reply above, I'm just afraid of this becoming "real". At the moment, it's just me dealing silently with this. I have dealt with this for a long time, and so at this point, I feel like I can just keep dealing with it alone even if it hurts me. I'd worry the bejeezuz out of my mum and Gran. I text my mum every day, my dad every few days and I speak to my brothers nearly every day over social media. They often send me photos of my dogs when I'm away too. It's funny. My partner and I are dogsitting at the moment while a friend is away with work, and he is a gorgeous dog but I just struggle playing with him when I'm sad because I feel so guilty being away from my own dogs. This further makes me think that something is happening in my mind that only real help can fix. I can't call my family, hearing their voices when I'm away makes me cry. I feel like I'm in a rut here. I'm here asking for guidance etc but at the same time, I'm not very willing to help myself and I feel like I'm just going in circles. Thanks so much for listening. Typing how I feel does help a small amount. And apologies for my reply being so late. I only find myself logging onto my account here when I wake up feeling sad. Today is one of those days.
