Having a hard time

Bluey_moon · ‎08-03-2016

Well hi guys,

I guess I'm just needing to talk. As most of you know I struggle with GAD and OCD tendencies. I have a fair dose of health anxiety. I have recently been cleared multiple times of having a psycotic disorder, which is great as I've been very scared of this.

This week has been different. For the last five weeks I have struggled with lady problems and as a consequence have become really tired (I had blood tests to test iron ect today and I am changing the contraceptive pill I'm on). Being chronically tired is flaring my anxiety and making me feel pretty down. I'm also struggling with migraines tonight.

I'm sorry to vent! I just wanted to know if anyone had any advice.

Skye

Bluey_moon · ‎09-03-2016

And I feel so bloody sad for no reason, maybe hormones? Not depressed as such just down 😢

Bluey_moon · ‎10-03-2016

Sorry for winging everyone

Guest_5218 · ‎10-03-2016

Hello Skye,

How has everyone missed your posts here over 3 days! I'm ever so sorry, you must be feeling neglected. ( - :

Perhaps nobody has any good advise for you. Unfortunately I am a bit the same.

But I didnt want to leave you out there being unresponded to.

So here I am with nothing very constructive to offer...................

I guess it could be hormonal? But I suspect your health anxiety is a large part of the problem. With your previous fears about schizophrenia recently deemed to be unfounded, perhaps that has now freed you up to start worrying about something else. Do you think that may be the case?

Chronic tiredness - you mention that you had blood tests recently to check iron levels etc. The results will indicate whether low iron levels could be contributing towards your tiredness. And if that is the case, the it can be rectified very easily.

I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad and down. You do say that you are not depressed though - do you know that for certain?

What will usually pep you up a little when you are feeling sad? Perhaps: Phoning a friend or family member for a chat, taking the dog for a walk, how about a shopping trip, a relaxing soak in the bath (cool, as today is hot), read a book perhaps? Try to find something that usually makes you feel happy.

I'm sorry I cant help more Skye. But I am thinking of you, and offer you my support from a distance.

Here's a hug for you, and I hope you start to feel better soon. Perhaps drop into the Cafe to check out the new Jukebox that Kaz brought for us today.

Sherie xx

Simona · ‎10-03-2016

Hey Bluey : ) You are not whinging. In any case there is no better place TO whinge than in a public arena. It's where i do my lamenting the best HA: ) I'm sorry i have no advice. Perhaps the change in the seasons even? Because i don't like how it gets dark earlier. It affects me negatively

Dwwmills · ‎10-03-2016

Hi Skye.

I’m sorry to hear you are down at the moment but being tired will do that to you every time. It’s hard to be optimistic when you’re so tired that you can’t even be bothered to get up out of your chair. I’m glad you have seen your doctor and are getting some tests done. I think it’s always easier to deal with knowns rather than unknowns.

When I feel sad or flat I find the best thing to do is to get out side of my head. If there is nothing majorly wrong in my life it’s usually my thought patterns that get me into this situation. Just talking to people about other things than what I have been obsessing about generally breaks the cycle for me. Everyone has a different view on the world and mixing in and talking to them can give you a different perspective on things. I have some friends who are amazingly positive. Just being around this positivity at times can be uplifting. I also find that I sometimes have to fake being happier than what I am. The funny thing is though that faking it can sometimes turn into really feeling that way. A bit like fake it till you make it.

The other thing I find is that life can just get a bit boring at times if you get stuck in the day-to-day chores of life. Making plans for the future can make a big difference. It can be a trip out to the movies, or to go somewhere on the weekend or as I like cooking I’ll plan a meal and have people around. It’s the thought of having something pleasant to do in the future that helps lift my mood.

Coming on here is also a good thing as you are seeking other people’s opinions and getting outside of your own thoughts.

Hope you’re feeling better soon.

Dean

Bluey_moon · ‎10-03-2016

Sherie, Simona and Dean,

Thank you for your advice and encouragment. A lot of me is overtired (my little boy is sick).

i know being tired is a trigger for me. Especially with the thoughts of "s". And although I've recently had it ruled out as diagnostic possibility my mind is in the habit of stressing about it! Also Sherie you are right in the fact my mind looks to stress about something else!

I've been a little snappy with the kids today which gets me down cause Im not a cranky mum, at all really, I barley raise my voice at them!

I kinda don't expect anyone to reply it's my way of venting I guess!

I am very honored people care so much. The three of you are going through so much yourselves, yet you take the time to care and reply to me.

i care a lot about you all!

Sherie, I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight love. I'm glad to hear your hubby is on the mend.

Simona, lovely lady, I hope you are doing ok, I think of you often, how you are doing!

Dean, how are you? Is everything slowly getting better? How is your eyesight going?

Hugs, Skye

Bluey_moon · ‎11-03-2016

Having a real hard last night/morning! Desperately want to believe getting better, my Dr says I am! I will have to re- read my letter from the hospital. I was thinking I could hear things all night, it takes a lot to constantly remind myself it's the anxiety and nothing else! 😭 Just want to be the old me but maybe that's not ment to be!

Guest_1055 · ‎11-03-2016

Hello dear Skye

Are you feeling any better this evening? I could send out a hug to you, if you think it will help any.

You know I also get tired quite a bit. And when I become tired I can get cranky and snappy like you. I also cry more and feel sad. And another thing, when I am tired, I notice I blow things out of proportion. Everything seems to upset me more easily or something. And I often can't think straight too.

So maybe you are right about yourself, you are simply tired, that's all. Someone told me on these forums that I was perhaps being too hard on myself. So maybe you are being to hard on yourself too, or something Skye.

Anyway I hope you and your little one feel better soon.

Take care now

With love

Shell xx

Bluey_moon · ‎11-03-2016

Hey Shell,

It is just tired, and my anxiety flares terribly. I've been assessed so many times in the last few months, I even have a letter now saying scizophrenia and other psycotic conditions have been ruled out as a diagnostic possibility. ie: I have a psychiatrist, and 2 psychologists and a psychiatric nurse who all say confidently I have no scizophrenia, only Ocd and anxiety.

Today has been fine, I'm less tired but also a bit sick now!

I beleive tge proffesionals now and when I doubt it I read my letter they sent!

Thanks for caring Shell xo

love Skye