First massive anxiety attack

[nattycakes29]

Today i had my first massive anxiety attack.

I was sitting on the train when i received a message regarding my financial situation. I got cold all over, nauseous and dizzy. I thought if I could close my eyes it might just go away, when in fact it did the complete opposite, it got worse.

I thought I was going to pass out right then and there. I had to force myself off the train (just on the off chance I actually did through up).

What a horrific feeling it was. I thought i was going to have to walk over to the hospital emergency room nearby because i thought i was dying. Even now as i write this i am still nauseous and have the shakes.

I think to top it all off I'm embarrassed. Embarrassed that i have allowed myself to get to this point. Angry that i haven't been taking better care of myself and frustrated because the moment i think I'm doing better i get knocked off my perch and end up like this.

How do I get through this? I can't ask how to get over it because I don't truly think i will ever get over my depression and anxiety.

Sorry for the long winded story but i felt writing it out could help when in actual fact it has made me bawl my eyes out.

[Anne1303]

Hi there

What an awful experience you have gone through, I can totally relate as I have been in similar situations many times. I am still working on how best to deal with my extreme anxiety, but just wanted you to know you are not alone at all.

[geoff]

hi Nattycakes, welcome to BB, and I'm sorry that you had to experience this all of a sudden, but have they been building up over a long time, not that you may have noticed and thought nothing from them because it's quite possible.
Your doctor will be able to help you with medication, but that's not all you need to do, you will need to talk to someone about why these attacks have started to affect you.
Can I also say that if you don't get help then depression will soon follow as it normally does. Geoff.

[nattycakes29]

Thank you for that Geoff.

I do think it has been building up for a long time. I have had mini attacks but nothing this big.

I’m making an appointment with my GP today to start the process.

I think that it doesn’t help that I feel like I can’t talk to my partner about what’s going on. That’s where the embarrassment kicks in.

[geoff]

hi Nattycakes, sometimes the embarrassment factor does come into the situation, but perhaps this is a reason why this anxiety has begun, ask your doctor about how to discuss this with your partner.
Can I get you to click on 'Get Support' and scroll down until you see 'Publications to download or order' then you can ring BB up and order this booklet or download it, but it's probably best to order it as the download involves many papers, this will help you talk with your partner, and leave it on the coffee table so that they can read it. Geoff.