Feeling dreadful

[Matala]

I have recently moved house to live with my parents (interstate) as my partner has gone overseas for one year. I have agoraphobia and relied on my partner to take me places. I have sensory integration disorder (I have a diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder), which means that certain sensory input can be very distressing, this is party how my agoraphobia developed. 

I had been seeing psychologist last year to help with my sensory integration issues, and am now seeing a psychologist in this state to help with my agoraphobia. I had been  seeing allot of improvement with my agoraphobia issues, I had been learning to do things by myself, and was feeling very optimistic about everything.  

Two weeks ago everything changed. Whenever I left the house I would become overwhelmed, for the first week I thought that it would pass, but as time has since past I have developed a strong feeling of hopelessness. On Wednesday I saw my psychologist who thinks that the change I have been experiencing and the stress of adapting to the new sensory environment on top of challenging my fear of public places has become too much for me. The last few days since, I have been experiencing a huge weight of stress and everything has become too much. I should also say that I have also developed bad muscular pain in my neck and jaw area over the last week, which may have contributed to this emotional feeling.

I guess right now, I am feeling awful. I don't know how things will get better. I don't feel capable to doing anything to improve my situation either. Even going to the psychologist feels like too difficult.

[white knight]

Hi Matala,

Sorry you've waited a while for a response. This is likely because your situation requires more of a professional help.

The only suggestion I can give is to try to divert your mind from your issues. My wife uses adult colouring in books. Some use jigsaws, hobbies, music. That might help a little.

Good luck and take care.

Tony WK

[Bluey_moon]

Hi Matala, 

I'Ve only just seen your post and I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. I have not much in the way of advice as I haven't experienced what you have. 

Where you live now, is there an oppurtunity for a psycologist to come to your house? Also is there a mental health centre there you could contact by phone. My mental health centre attached to the base hospital has helped me immensly with my issues. They have a 24 hour acute care line, so they are available all the time. 

Also if you contact Beyond blue by phone or online, they may have some suggestions! 

Do you have people you could invite over to your place for a coffee? 

Please if you feel up to it drop in to our BB cafe, where you can chat about anything. 

Take care, 

Skye