continuing my struggle

[HelenM]

I've not been on BB because although I know people are more than willing to help there comes a time when there's no advice other than to hang in there. However I know everyone cares.

My symptoms are so unpredictable; this whole depression, it came in January has confused and frightened me and all I can do is plod on hoping that things will sort or improve

[AGrace]

Hi Helen,

Forgive my memory if I've posted to you before, what sort of treatment plan do you have for your Depression?

Have you had a look at the thread SELF HELP TIPS FOR MANAGING DEPRESSION under the Depression section of the forums?

I hope that you will continue to post here so that even if we may not have advice for you, we can still continue to support you.

AGrace

[geoff]

dear Helen, it's quite alright not to reply to other people when you are not feeling well, and yes of course we know you, and yes we do care very much for you.

What can happen for people when feeling like you do is that there are posts that are similar to how you feel, and reply by just saying 'I know how you feel', that's it, no more, no less, because it just keep you in touch.

I do realise that when you are so low, so depressed just like you obviously are at the moment that to actually start typing on your computer then a flood of tears fill your eyes, and this makes you want to stop, absolutely appreciate this and can totally understand, but when you like s****t can be a great time to talk to us.

It always happens at the psych's office, but you plod on, it's so hard I know, but perhaps just type 'I feel like c*****p Helen', sure we will try and get you to reply, but just say 4 or 5 short words back to us. L Geoff. x

[HelenM]

Hi Geoff,

Thanks for such a warm post and yes the tears are starting in my eyes. It's lovely to be so cared about and somehow I'll get there and I believe people on here believe that too. The journey of recovery is certainly a difficult one.

I hope you are doing well Geoff.

love helen

[dougall]

Hi Helen, I am new to this forum and I thought I would let you know that there are so many people out there that care for you, ones you don't know about and are still keeping a look out for you.  Hope your day goes well whichever part of the world you are in.

[Iwillsurvive]

I have the same fears when I am feeling at my best. You just never know when your happy bubble will burst without warning, for no reason. It sucks! But know that you can get back to that happy place again.

Take care.

[dougall]

well said.

[dougall]

Hi HelenM how are you doing today, well I hope.

[HelenM]

Hi Dougall and Iwillsurvive

Thanks for your posts which I've just read.

And hi to you Geoff, I meant to pop on earlier but haven't been on the site at all as I didn't have the mental energy.

However, I'm having some good days, thank God. And it means I feel well able to come on and say hello and it reminds me that I'm part of this lovely caring community.

Long may my good days continue but I think I will try to come on just to say hello even if unwell.

[White_Rose]

Dear Helen

How lovely to hear from you again.  I was thinking about you a couple of days ago and wondering how you were going.  It's taken me this long to find your post but I have not been on the site very often just lately.

So sorry that you have been so down but glad you have had a some good days.  I was at a training day today and someone said "I drank to drown my sorrows but the b**st***s learned to swim."  I hope that amuses you as much as it did me.

We are in the throes of the G20 meeting in Brisbane. Police everywhere and helicopters flying overhead at odd times. Road closures and detours. I will be so pleased when it is all over and things get back to normal. I made my last trip across town today for the week and I will not be going anywhere further than a couple of kilometres until next week. Not my idea of a good time.

Talk to us as often as possible. Making the effort can be worthwhile. And anyway it's good to talk. Take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself.

Mary