Hi there - this is my first post so i apologise in advance as I know this may sound like someone whinging or complaining I was just unsure as what to do next.
My current situation is that I am constantly worried about losing my job, even though I am performing well and believe I am doing a good job. I have been in my current workplace for 3 months now but have had to take close too 2 weeks off due to having a viral infection in my eye which is highly contagious.
A little history on myself is that a few years back I had a massive drinking problem as unfortunately I choose to cope with all my issues by drinking. Due to this i lost the majority of my friends and family ended up being in rehab and eventually homeless for a time.
Fast forward to today - I have managed to get myself sorted thankfully and am so grateful as I am coming up 2 years sober now. Repercussions of those years of drinking is a lot of anxiety particularly around work - as holding a job a few years back was very challenging.
I am a recruiter that is my job and it can be highly stressful. What i am currently telling myself is that i physically cannot go to work as if i make my entire office sick or even my clients/staff sick that this would cause way more troubles (plus my boss has told me not to come in till my eye clears)
I guess I am just worried that my work will think I am not committed or dedicated or that I am someone who calls in sick constantly. I am very frustrated as I have now been to the doctors several times and there is nothing I can do to speed my eyes recovery up it is just going to take time. I have worked so hard to get to where i am today and i finally have a job that i love and am passionate about so i guess this is why i am so worried about it.
I am just looking for other people's perspectives or thoughts on how i can come at this situation - at the end of the day when i finally do get back to work I will just work as hard as i can so that there isn't an issue - i need to work on more self love as a really am so highly critical of myself. If at the end of the day they do get rid of me for being sick then this wasn't the right place for me though i will be shattered. Having said that I have been through much worse and always make it out in the end.
Thank you for reading and i wish a great day.
