anxiety ridden

[mee]

hi,

had a bad last 7 years, losing job because of a liar, deaths in family , multiple injury health issues plus operations and a world of change otherwise. now im fully anxiety ridden, i moved to country to escape city madness and run from jerks in my past. now i detest it here, im stuck in a house im trying to sell to go back to a life i dont want to. im fully depressed and anxiety ridden , i struggle daily with actually staying in one piece, i am so lost its unreal, i simply cant clear my head and find myself, its leading to me making big decisions that im starting to regret , ie selling stuff to simply my life for starters. i am really struggling , im on antidepressants , im guessing its helping a bit, dont want medication, just want normality again . i now realize ive had this since a child, but its obviously gotten worse with the issues life and nasty people burden you with as age progresses . so lost, so mixed up, so scared and so everything else !!!!! ;o(((((((((((((

[Croix]

Dear Mee~

I've read you talking with other posters here over a fair while, but have not found another thread belonging to you - my apologies if I've missed it. You have been having a pretty hard time all along, it is reflected in your posts.

Although you say you've made bad decisions I think the idea of moving to a less stressful place was well worth a try, if the results have been only so-so then at least you are trying to make things better.

Long time anxiety is a hard thing to live with and does influence decisions. I've been lucky to have someone who understands and is able to give me perspective, something I can easily lose. Is there anyone in your life like that, a partner, family member or friend?

I know you said you are on A/Ds, does your doctor go further and suggest therapy with a psychologist or even better a psychiatrist? I found I did not improve without GP plus psych.

One of the things I've found has helped when I've been lost is to have a routine that includes something I can enjoy every day. It gives me something to look forward to and allows my mind to get away from ordinary life for a little while. I use books and movies, I also use mild exercise, going for a walk when the mid starts to race.

Are there things you do or used to do that you enjoy like that?

You know you are welcome here anytime, whenever you wish to talk

Croix