I have GAD, SAD, panic attacks & intrusive thoughts. I am a job searching. I only have experience with office work. I am completely unable to cope with any customer service (it completely physically paralyses me and stops me from being able to mentally process anything in a timely manner) and many office jobs require it. I would be okay with office work with NO CS in a low pressure environment and try to apply for these sorts of jobs, however I have apply for a certain amount of jobs p.month (cl recipient) and if I only apply for the non-cs jobs I can't meet my quota.
Previous jobs I had in that area involved customer service and I couldn't cope. I was unable to output the volume of work needed because my heart was beating out of my chest and I was dizzy, shaky, nauseous from the moment I woke up until the moment I fell asleep everyday and I could not process anything. I would read a document over and over only to forget what it said a second later. I went from being able to type fast to forgetting where the keys are on the keyboard. The customer service was terrible, many abusive customers in one of the jobs. And in others, I would get calls from customers asking questions and would constantly have to ask everyone else for the answers because I simply didn't know the answer, which the bosses and other employees resented. I was fired because of all of this from multiple jobs. IT NEVER GOT EASIER. I felt exactly the same on my days off. I had no life or enjoyment.
I have a job interview in a couple of days - office work w/customer service. As awful as it sounds, I am terrified of the interview, but also that I may be offered the job. I want to work, I just don't want to do a job that will set my mental health backwards. I have not eaten in two days I am so physically ill at the thought. I am supposed to look for interview pants yet am sitting here having dizzy spells from lack of food. I can't turn down the job or money will be suspended for 3 months.
I want to pursue study and work experience in another area (dream job) but a physical ailment has forced me to put it off for a while. My job search agency has a "get over it" mentality (re mental health) despite being DES and I am considering just going after the other study & experience and risking serious injury because I'd rather deal with physical injury and pain than be stuck having a complete breakdown everyday like I did in the other roles.
Sorry for the length, thankyou for your time.
