Anxiety, panic, and just coping.

[QldMouse]

Hi,

I know I'm not alone by any means (Thank you Beyond Blue) but somehow that knowledge does not help.

Trust me I've read a lot, been to a lot of therapy, made a lot of progress. But.

That awful feeling of panic, then stupidity sets in, irrational behaviour kicks into high gear, breath gets difficult, speech becomes impossible, and then the chest pain and headaches set in. In spite of wishing for the ground to open up and swallow me, it does not. I have to deal with my issues.

In spite of a desperate need to connect with people I drive them away, and run away myself. I am so tired of being an anxiety riddled social lepper. And I have so tried. Now out of visits on my mental health plan, and can't afford the therapy I need, what do people do?

Thank you all.

PS. to White Rose you lovely contributor, it is so nice to see your avatar but so sad to hear your news. I am thinking of you and so hope you recover and feel better very soon.

[Doolhof]

Hi QldMouse and All reading,

There are some bush walks near us I would like to go on and tried to talk my husband into joining me but he is not interested. I am concerned there is no mobile phone coverage in that area. My ankle is still not 100 percent so I would feel better if someone was with me in case I have another injury.

Hope you have managed to do some more activities you have enjoyed to help boost your level of good stuff that is happening in your life.

It is helpful when we are aware of our triggers and can find an off switch! That is not always possible though is it! Guess what we need to do then is work out how to move on from those events.

I know I have bolted out of Church a few times due to panic attacks that have been triggered by what I am not sure!

Hoping you have some nice things planned for the coming weekend.

Cheers from Dools

[Doolhof]

Hi Mary,

I was volunteering at the home for the elderly toady and managed to get so many names wrong!

As long as I remember who I am I guess that is all that matters!

When I start signing my name as Doolhof outside of the forum then I will know I have problems!

Cheers from Dools

[White_Rose]

Hello Dools and a wave to Mouse

I have signed my real name on these forums at times and posted the reply. Fortunately the mods were able to change it. Whew. It's not that I don't want my name known but it is policy not to use these names. I have not yet signed anything outside the forum as Mary or White Rose. When I see a confused look on someone's face and realise how I have signed it will be a good reminder to to read the post before sending it off.

Mary

[QldMouse]

@BoltRog

Absolutely, lets start a club, get a tree house and everything. It might need to be a very big tree house ...

We are not alone I think!

[QldMouse]

Hello ladies,

I'm so glad we sorted out who was Henry, and the fact that we all get confused at times!!

Thank you for your comments, somehow it does take the sharp edges off life to find out that you are not the only one feeling these feelings, getting these strange looks, walking into solid objects that jump out at you ... oh hold on that is just me!!!

Doolhof I understand how hard it is to find someone to walk with, I joined a walking club and its really good. They are very organised and I feel safe walking with them. I recommend it. Be safe.

Still taking baby steps, tripping over a few steps but moving.

All the best.

Qld-White-rabbit, er moose?!?! Sigh, bed time!!

[White_Rose]

Hello Mouse and a wave to BoltRog

Thanks for not writing me off as a complete idiot. Also thanks for your post which is a delightful as usual. Glad you still have your sense of humour. I find it goes a long way to settling me if I can laugh. What does Readers Digest say? Laughter is the best medicine and I think they may have something there.

A tree house? Now that's different. Best to try for one of those huge Moreton Bay Figs for your tree house. You can get a few people in one of those. I see we are getting the EKKA winds already. So cold unless you can find a sunny sheltered area. You will need to take this into consideration when building.

I have found it good to learn I am in the same boat as others. The day I realised I was not the only one was such a relief. Other people felt the same as me. Wow!

Are you still reading Gifts? It's something I can go back to all the time. Some good stuff there. Good to hear about the baby steps. They are the safest and such a relief to know we are moving forward. I keep asking my GP to use her magic wand and she keeps saying the batteries are flat. Sigh.

I hope you have a good day.

Mary

[Doolhof]

Hi Mouse, Mary, BoltRog and All,

A tree house is something I have wanted on this property, and water in the dam. It would be excellent sitting up in the tree house watching the ducks on the dam listening to the frogs and having friends over to share the experience.

Running into things is something I do sometimes. Especially door frames! They jump out at me like a rugby tackler!

I also ask my husband not to talk to me while I am trying to cook or else he will have burnt offerings for dinner or alternately have to wait ages as I forget to turn the stove top on!

Do any of you have any plans for the weekend?

My sister said she may be coming either Friday late afternoon or Saturday some time for a visit. I find it easier for me if I know when she is coming!

Hope you all have a good weekend no matter what you end up doing.

Cheers from Dools

[QldMouse]

Hi White Rose, Doolhof, and the internet (!)

Thank you yes, I keep a sense of humour close at all time. I find it a good shield to hide behind and prevent people seeing the actual hurt. I see that in others more and more, and wonder about their struggle.

I am still reading and collecting gifts, I cling to them even though some people in my life have chastised me for it. I realise that says more about them and their struggles than me but I continue to take it to heart.

Thank you I do have a plan to leave the house, and walk both days of the weekend. I know that will get me out of the dumps for many hours and that just feels so much better.

Have a great weekend.

[Marty89]

Oh the panic and breathless feeling. I have the same thing and it is so debilitating! Is there anything that you have tried that has helped you with these symptoms?

[Doolhof]

Hi Mouse,

Hope you manage to get out for those walks. I might go for a walk myself. Also hoping to do some gardening. I might ask around and see if there are any walking groups in the area. I know of one that goes on a Sunday morning, that is when I am at Church.

A sense of humour can help. It does make me wonder sometimes what is behind a person's humour, is it a tortured soul trying to find happiness, or a genuinely cheerful person sharing their joy with the world.

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

Cheers from Dools