Anxiety and work and me

[findmeagain]

I really try not to feel insecure, have Low self esteem and confidence but that is what I feel when I get anxious. The worse thing is i am extremely caring woman who would help anyone but feel so lost when the anxiety sets in. I can't trust people I don't know well I shut down I have been severely betrayed at a past job now I feel any job I do it will happen again. I feel like if I say something the manager will twist it and betray me. I also feel that when I am anxious I speak fast and say silly things because I am nervous. Other days i feel like I was 15 years ago a women who had such strength that no one would ever betray me or put me down. I am not embarrassed to say I have anxiety or get depressed sometimes what I don't like is how I have lost me and find it hard to find peace.

[Meowface]

I like how your name is find me again because that is a huge part of how I feel with anxiety - it seems to force us on that journey.

Ive struggled for many years in office jobs and a major trauma was being badly bullied for over 12 months when I was younger.

Ive started alternatives this year including going back on medication, trying to get to yoga and have decided I’m going to try and leave my rigid full time job for something that is more flexible to improve my mental health.

look after you xx