Hi,
i have recently joined the forum to try and get some help and support for my crippling anxiety.
I work in an emergency service and over the years I have noticed my anxiety being more prevalent.
Although now it has reached a point where it is actually affecting my work performance. I am so paranoid about what my colleagues think of me and how I go about my work day that I avoid certain situations. My mind races, I forget things and I can’t concentrate.
I know that I am not reaching my full potential. I know that if I don’t change things, I’ll be disappointed later on because I could not achieve my work goals. I know I am capable of so much more, but when it comes down to it I hide away and am afraid to make decisions for fear of judgement.
When I was very junior in my role I was quite badly bullied. I was made a fool of by someone as I was still learning and they did not have the patience to deal with it. Following that I have been very embarrassed and felt like everyone was judging me.
i have been on medication for depression before, however that made me gain a significant amount of weight and I hated it. I am not depressed at all now, just anxious.
How can I get better and start to get on top of my work again? How can I start focusing and remembering things?
