Am i normal

[Jamielee88]

This is my first post i suffer from sereve anxiety n sevre panic attacks. I cry all the time n question life. Ive got a fear of dying. I dont feel normal anymore. I just wanna feel noral again n do things i use to. I feel useless that i cant do stuff that i use to cause im scared. I just dont know what to do anymore. Its like no one seems to understand. I find when i try go out to shops it feels like everyones just looking at me n judging me. My body is in constant pain both phyiscally n enotionally. Im scared to be left by my self. I just wanna feel good about myself again like i did before. I wake up in tears when i sleep. I have my first phycologist appointment on thursday wich making me more nervous n anxious

[blondguy]

Hello Jamielee88

Welcome and thankyou for having the strength to post....and good on you!

Unfortunately anxiety/panic attacks are common which is little relief to you right now. Crying all the time is another part of the anxiety. ...I understand where you coming from as my first mega anxiety attack was in 1983 when I was 23...I even remember where I was and what the weather was like....I remember feeling like I was going to die...thats for sure.....I hear you...the symptoms are very real and very scary too

If its okay, can I ask you how long you have these awful anxiety attacks? It will help me try to help you Jamielee

You are not on your own here....there are many kind people that have anxiety/depression and I am one of them

You are more than welcome to post back as many times as you wish...I really hope you do

I feel your pain Jamielee

My kindest thoughts for you

Paul

[Fairywings]

hello and welcome like Paul said ur not alone anymore you have us to help you here and we all do understand xx Nice to meet you i'm Venessa. Good on you for finding the courage and bravery to post. U r now on the road to recovery xx Anxiety is a horrid monster but I need you to fight this monster. I'm glad u have ur first apt please don't be scared to go it will do more good than harm. I have a social phobia too am worried everyone is looking at me when i'm out in public again that what anxiety does it distorts our perception of things. , but i have a young child so i have to try and overcome this social phobia of mine every time i step out the door bc my little one loves to go places and be a social butterfly 🙂 There is nothing wrong with you u r def normal, just struggling and that's ok we all struggle at some point in our lives but with support we manage to work thru it xx nice to have spoken with you feel free to come back to us anytime Venessa

[geoff]

hi Jamie, as Paul and Venessa have both said that anxiety is a curse and the worst part is that it is controlling, but even more so it's part of depression which dominates so many different features in depression.
People can overcome this anxiety but it's always there just waiting for the chance to come back and annoy you, so I believe that we have to learn on how to manage it ourselves, knowing that a situation is approaching so we have to put into place the ways we have learnt on how we can control it.
This isn't easy to do but it's a slow process that does take time.
Can I suggest that you write down on a piece of paper how you are feeling so that all you have to do is hand it over to your psychologist so that they can read it, this will avoid your fear of having to explain to them what is happening with you, and at the bottom just say that you feel nervous talking about it, this will then enable the psychologist to start the conversation slowly.
The other point I would like to say is that they will want to see you again and then make another appointment, so once again write down what has happened during the time between sessions.
Would really like to hear back from you. Geoff.

[blondguy]

Hi Jamielee

I just read something that Geoff wrote...which I neglected to mention as its a great way to save yourself a heap of stress (and time) when you see your psychologist...

Geoff said: "Can I suggest that you write down on a piece of paper how you are
feeling so that all you have to do is hand it over to your psychologist
so that they can read it, this will avoid your fear of having to explain
to them what is happening with you"

My Best Jamielee (and thankyou Geoff)

Paulx

[Jamielee88]

Thats a good idea im not a good talker at the best of times

[Jamielee88]

Thank u geoff thats a goos idea cause im not good at expressing how i feel at the best of times. Im thankfull for all the positive coments it kinda gives me hope. Im really strugling atm i just wanna feel normal again. Fairy wings n blondeguy i really thank you for ur reply, u nailed what anxiety is n how it feels im glad im not alone. I thank everyone for there comments n suport its greatly appriciated. I hide behind a wall most of the time. Im glad people understand cause it feels like people dont n they just judge

[Fairywings]

Anytime sweetheart that's what we r here for xx take care of your self and keep in touch whenever u need too we r always here for you xx

[Jamielee88]

Sometimes it feels like i cant jus cope anymore if that makes sence

[Fairywings]

Yes sweetheart it does it makes complete sense i def hear you i have these days where I feel like I can't go on i cry it out but I make sure i don't unpack there as i can spiral very quickly 🙁 i want u to think about the things u enjoy in life paint that picture in ur mind and focus on it in the meantime fight the insecurities that will just randomly pop in. It is a skill that takes practice and I know u can do it xx once u master this it will make u feel invincible and u have just enabled the anxiety to retreat in its own monsterous sack and no longer control you i am here for you sweetie believe me it does get easier u just have to believe in yourself and i believe in you always around if u need to talk 😘 venessa