Am i normal

[Jamielee88]

This is my first post i suffer from sereve anxiety n sevre panic attacks. I cry all the time n question life. Ive got a fear of dying. I dont feel normal anymore. I just wanna feel noral again n do things i use to. I feel useless that i cant do stuff that i use to cause im scared. I just dont know what to do anymore. Its like no one seems to understand. I find when i try go out to shops it feels like everyones just looking at me n judging me. My body is in constant pain both phyiscally n enotionally. Im scared to be left by my self. I just wanna feel good about myself again like i did before. I wake up in tears when i sleep. I have my first phycologist appointment on thursday wich making me more nervous n anxious

[Jamielee88]

Im trying but i feel like im failing big time i get panic attacks thinking about when the next one will come on. Last night i was in hospital causeof it. Ive also got tiezers syndrome wich doesnt help with my anxiety. Imcrying asi write this cause even idont know if i can do this anymore,idont even know if i can beat this, i feel like i just wanna give up. I feel like no one understands it. My partner tells me its all in my head

[Fairywings]

Thanks for coming back to me xx sweetheart i don't want u to give up this easy on urself i know u r going to get thru this time of ur life. I want you to start using the hotline and speaking to the councillors on the phone everytime u start to feel uneasy like it going to get beyond ur control and dial the number. You have access to our hotline 1300 22 4636 there is also lifeline that u can call xx when my anxiety and panic attacks got bad for me this is what i used to do pick up the phone and physically talk to someone xx just hearing the voice on the other end found me comfort coz i knew i wasn't alone and it always happened after midnight for me and there were some nights where i felt so alone whilst having an attack i couldn't bear even to get out of bed to get the phone but something gave me the courage one night and I dialled lifeline best thing i ever did xx being told it's all in ur head I'm sorry ur partner says this to you i still get it from my hubby and we have been together for a very long time. I can see why he says it to me bc in a way he isc right what we suffer with distorts our perception of reality and makes us feel and believe in things that rnt really as bad as they seem but for us its all becomes too unbearable to face. This is where we need to sit down with ourselves and only ourselves and challenge those thoughts and insecurities we r facing and feeling. It is such a hard thing to do when our minds become overridden with horrible thoughts. Can u tell me if you have had ur first appointment with the psychologist and how u felt it went also i think ur partner should sit in on a few sessions so he too can gain a better idea and understanding on how to help and support you thru ur hard times xx

[blondguy]

Hey Jamielee

I hear you! Loud and clear.....

We are here for you .....

Anxiety does lessen....it cant sustain itself over a long period.....Its like my XR8....it eventually runs out fuel..

Paul

[Jamielee88]

Would they even care about me if i ring those numbers my partners like a brick he has no emotions. I went to one i have a second one this friday. I think i need to be admited to mental health for a bit. I dont really have friends cause i shut myself of from the wofld so i feel some what safe.

[Jamielee88]

For the first time in a while i actually cracked a smirk at that. How do u cope with it. I feel like its beating me n i feel like giving up

[Fairywings]

Yes they would hun they have a duty of care xx if u feel this option is what you need atm i would definitely recommend discussing it with your therapist being admitted its not a easy topic and takes some what an amount of consideration b4 taking the plunge xx

[lostlookingforlove]

Jamie dont you worry my friend. normal is such a stupid word in todays society as everyone is unique and each to themselves. it is perfectly fine in what you go through, death in itself is a scary concept of life and many of us go through this though process numerous times a day.

in relation to your fears dont let them hold you back from doing the things you love, you have to tackle them head first and break that barrier stopping you becoming the person you want to be. i have multiple fears i have overcome such as heights, insects and snakes, all through experiencing these in a positive light.

so remember you are not alone with these issues but i encourage you to break free of these bonds and under go a change for the good. Best of Luck with your future endeavors

Nathaniel 🙂