Why do i hate myself?

[Monicaa_16]

Could someone please just tell why i hate myself so goddamn much. i can't stand me. i'm a worthless, pathetic, fat, ugly loser who has no friends. i also make all the wrong decisions and that makes me hate myself some more. i just want to know why. WHY?

[the_motorcycle_boy]

Hi Monicaa_16

Welcome to beyondblue.

I'm sorry you are having such difficulty in your life at present. I am a newbie too but I'll try to advise you as best I can.

I think you hate and blame yourself so much because you have a very low self-esteem. This is not your fault, most probably it stems from your childhood but now, your thinking is very negative and consequently unhealthy for you. Among other things it means you have little compassion for yourself which again is not your fault. You will put yourself down repeatedly yet rarely do you praise yourself. This makes life pretty painful. I know because I've been there.

Learning more about having a healthy self-esteem would help, I believe.

Counseling from a professional regarding self-esteem could be an option or getting a good self help book on the subject. I wish you well.

All the best

Henry

[tc]

Hi Monicaa_16,

There is so much pain in your post!  You refer to yourself with so much negativity and criticism - "worthless, pathetic".  It sounds overwhelming. 

You didn't mention even one positive thing about yourself.

I'm not able to give you an answer to "WHY?". But, what has happened in your life that has brought you to this point?

You showed courage and honesty to come here and bare your soul.  They are very strong traits of character - and something to be proud of.

Thinking of you

TC