I don't know what to do!!!! Help? :( - new here.

[Helpme1]

Hi. Obviously new to this forum.

well.. Where do I begin.

feeling hopeless, worthless thinking that nobody cares about me anymore, suicide thoughts (a few times) not much now,. What else - oh people would be better off without me! I Don't give a crap. 😞 I just ball my eyes out especially in darkness, I like it like that, no body can see me:( . I still ball my eyes out because I am thinking of talking to mum. I am so terribly frightened. I can not do it ! I have told a couple of friends also and they tell me to do it but I don't know. I know something's wrong with me that's why I can't do it ! 😞

so this has been going on for months, and only beginning of this year I went to the doctor. On meds and stuff but I just don't want them anymore :'( I'm sick of taking them but I need them. 

my doctor has suggested I should see someone

I'm just SCARED :'( I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE 😞

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[gracie12]

Hi.
I'm new to this forum too.
I know exactly what you are feeling, it's all so overwhelming. I wish I could help you. It is hard and it doesn't ever seem like it will get better but you just have to tell yourself that it will. Try find little things that you enjoy doing, little things that will help relax you. Be safe.
It's so hard I know but it is a relieving feeling to know you are not alone in this.
Talking to someone about it all, as scary as it seems, is actually quite helpful.
Take care.
xx

[Mbuna]

Hey there Helpme,

Its sounds like you are doing it tough at the moment. A lot of people on this forum have been where you are at the moment at one stage. Its a horrible feeling and I can understand why you are feeling scared. You say you cant do it and that your friends say that you should do it. I am not really sure what "it" is. I am assuming that they are trying to encourage you to go and see someone. If so, then i think this is very good advice. You say you don't know whats wrong with you and that's why you cant do it. If you dont know whats wrong with you then that is the exact reason why you should go and see someone. Plucking up the courage to go and see someone about how you are feeling is a big step and I understand the hesitation. It took a long time before I decided I needed to get help. Once I did the only regret i had was that i did not do it sooner. Try and get the courage to go and see someone. Once you take that first step you will look back and wonder what all the fuss was about.

[Helpme1]

Hi,

Thank you for replying and apologies for using caps locks. I just am confused at the moment, all of these feelings Im feeling, I have no one that is around me to talk to 24/7 about all this and deciding whether or not if I should seek some advice on these forums. I can't do this But I need to. 

I don't know argh! This is confusing! To tell, to go see a councillor, going to doctors it's a lot and I'm so lost!

but I guess I shouldn't be lost?!:/