This is the first time I've spoken about this...

[stevezissou]

I dont know why i feel like this everything is near perfect in my life.

im finding it hard to control my sadness in public which is making me extremely introverted, which is only compounding the issue.

I have forgotten how to have fun from an early age

The negativity in my brain causes me to have headaches everyday as the sadness consumes my time.

I need to get some goddamn work done but i have no motivation and find myself rejecting plans which try to help me. I have no idea what to do with myself this is probably not enough information but i dont really know what to say

peace and love from

SteveZissou

[Doolhof]

Hi Steve,

Thanks for sharing how you are feeling. It really does suck doesn't it when life is cruising along nicely but you just can't find your Mojo!

Have you been to see your Dr. about this? There may be an underlying to cause to how you are feeling. It may be a mental health issue, it could be hormonal, due to a thyroid condition or so many other things.

It could be that you have been really busy lately and you are just plain tired and worn out!

So you are having trouble getting things accomplished. Can you break down some of your tasks.

Like you mentioned, I am only trying o guess what is happening, so some of this might not really fit for you.

Consider you want to mow the lawns, paint the house, cook dinner, clean the gutters and read the paper. All of that sounds way too hard in one breath!

You could mow the front lawn so it looks good for yourself and the neighbours. Make your self a cup of coffee and sit to read the paper for half an hour or so admiring the lawn!

You could then walk around the house and make a list of all the things you will need to do to prepare the house for painting and where you need to go to buy the supplies.

While you are out buying what you need, pick up something healthy for dinner that you can heat up later, go home, prepare a little of the front of the house ready to paint and decide to do more tomorrow.

One step at a time. One day at  time.

Make a list. Write down what you would like to do and need to do and check off the things you have achieved.

Hope this helps a little.

Cheers from Lauren

[PatT]

Hey Mr Murray,

I can dig it. Everything should be good but nothing is right. That's been the case for most of my life, no real problems to worry about, worries about everything. Unfortunately mental illness doesn't just target those who have it rough - anyone can be a victim. 

It really sounds like you've got some stuff to work on, but your worry is bringing you down to the point where it just seems to exhausting to put the effort in. It definitely sucks but the longer we leave something like this, the suckier it's going to get unfortunately. You really need to muster up the willpower to try and help yourself right now. You've made an awesome first step - reaching out to Beyondblue and asking for help. But in your post your answered one of your own dilemmas. There are plans in place but you don't have the energy to utilise them. 

You're going to have to put in that effort to help yourself, tiresome as it might be. Unfortunately things like this don't resolve themselves unless we start taking the first steps. You need strategies and plans to be able to manage this. This might involve psychologists, psychiatrists, medication, meditation or a combination of things. 

Mustering up willpower is a pain in the ass when you're in the throes of depression but we all have the ability to. And we never forget how to have fun. Unfortunately some of us experience things a lot less than other. Our brains release less dopamine in response to situations and while some people may find walking through a nice park extremely pleasurable, others will find it boring and mundane. But this is all reversible if we can expose ourselves to situations more and more and we can begin to manage our mental illness.

There's a really heavy fog around you right now but you've gotta take some steps to wade through it and find the shore. Don't become swallowed by it.

Best of luck, 

Pat.

[stevezissou]

Thankyou so much for your support guys i really appreciate you taking the time to answer me 🙂 still struggling with my demons but i think im going to accept the challenge now and try and move through it. had a particularly bad day today i dont understand why again because everything that happened has been good, its put me in a really bad place for tonight but i hope itll get better in the morning.

again peace and love from

SteveZissou

[Doolhof]

Hi Stevezissou,

Thanks for getting back to us.

My self and others totally understand what you are going through.

I've had a lovely weekend planned and am really struggling to get through it. Why? Because of this darn depression! I just feel like crying, curling up in a ball and disappearing from the world for a while.

Tears are okay. Retreating from the world for a little while is okay, as long as those options do not take over and you get stuck there.

It is like you slam your fingers in the door. You yell and scream for a while and that is okay. Later, the pain subsides, so you get back on with life again.

For me depression is a little like that.

We had a little sunshine here yesterday so I let the chooks out in the garden while sitting on a chair reading a self help book. I kept moving the chair around to where the chooks wanted to go!

Later on I helped my husband with a little fencing repair. I was feeling really angry and frustrated with my depression so I cleaned the house! Had a hot shower and I felt better after that.

The depression is still there this morning, so I already have a few nice things planned for the day to do later.

I'm going to make some soup, do some craft, read, potter about in the garden and see if that will all help.

I also have a couple of mental health telephone call numbers handy if I really start to loose the plot!

Do you find writing stuff down helpful? Have you tried that at all? Not just sharing how you are feeling here, but getting out pen and paper and really writing stuff out. Then tear it up and throw it away.

I hope you have a much better day today! Look for a couple of things to be thankful for at the end of the day too. That might help a little.

Cheers for now from Lauren