The reality of my life is dragging me down

[Immy-95]

Hi,

I wanted to share some thoughts and feelings with the community here.

I am very depressed and anxious about my current situation and my overall life.

This year has been the worst year of my life. Here's why:

- I had a nasty falling out with my best friend of four years

-I was kicked out of home

-I broke my ankle in April however it is not healed and have been stuffed around by the system.

- I had to declare bankruptcy

- I had to take a break from uni due to psychological and financial reasons

- I was homeless for a week

I am struggling with the reality that I am a loser.

I feel very alone with how my life is and that is not really worth living. I am not getting any joy or use out of it so what is the point of carrying on? I feel so worthless and alone in a depressing situation from which I see no end.

I do get centrelink and work part time, but it is not doing much to alievate the money issues. I can't get help from friends, parents or anyone.

I am missing that fact I do not have a best friend or anyone to do things with. I do go out and socialise at various events but have trouble making friends. I am not sure why I can't connect with some people; I use a variety of techniques to try to connect. I try to mimic others behaviour in order to fit in, I try to be myself, I keep to myself in case people come to me. I go to people and try to strike up a conversation. Seems like I am a social outcast

I am depressed about being bankrupt and not being able to apply for a loan, credit card, etc. I understand that is the side effect from doing that, but I continually apply and make my situation worse and worse. I fear never to be able to get a loan for a house or a car in the future. I really suck at money!

Thank you for taking the time to listen to me.

Kind regards,

Imogen.

[startingnew]

hello and welcome

my apologies that you havent had a response yet! things sound really really hard for you. im sorry to hear all the things youve been going through.

I think it mgiht be a good idea for you to get some professional help, your gp would be a good place to start that way they can refer you to financial counsellors, psychologists and other organisations that may be able to help you.

Please if your ever feeling unsafe, call someone. Lifeline, sucicide call back service, Beyond blue and since your in the young peoples section i can suggest kidshelpline and headspace as well. Please dont be afraid to use them, that is what they are there for.

[startingnew]

hello and welcome! im sorry you havent had a response as yet.

i have written up a post to you but it hasnt been cleared as yet. i wont repeat what ive said in that post but i do want to welcome you and let you know youve been heard until that post pops up.

[quirkywords]

Immy

I too welcome you the forum. I can se you have had a lot of issues to deal with this year. just one would be a lot to cope with but you have had many.

i u derstand why you would feel depressed but you are not a loser . You have had a lot of things happen to you . As you have a lot to deal with it does seem overwhelming unless you look at one at a time.

There is a National Debt Helpline That is free and you can ring them on 1800 007 007 and talk to professional financial counsellors Mon to Fri 9.30am to 4.30pm. they will be able to to help you with your questions and to make a plan.

Hopefully if you can get your money issues worked out, that will help you.

It is very difficult when you have had a best friend for four years and that ends.

It is good you can go out and socialise. Many people feel awkward in social situations even those you think are confident. you are making an effort and that is important.

What do you feel in your life is important and you would like to change

.You are not alone, people reading your post can relate to what you say. Sometimes in life we tend to have things happen in a short space of time than can be hard to cope with,

Thanks for sharing your story and feel free to post here as much as you want to.

Quirky

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[White_Rose]

Dear Imogen

Welcome to the forum. This is a good place to chat about the things that trouble and upset you. I hope we can support you.

I see Quirky has given you the contact details for the National Debt Helpline. It's good to know where you can find help and the answers to your questions, especially if it's free.

I gather you now have somewhere safe to live. Is that right? Being homeless is scary.

Are you getting any help with psychological problems. I know you are not at uni at the moment but I wonder if you can access their counselling services. There are a number of organisations that offer free counselling but it depends on what is troubling whether they would be suitable. I join Quirky in suggesting you see your GP about a referral to a mental health professional.

I expect your first reaction is to say it will cost more than you can afford. Your GP can refer you to a psychiatrist and may be able to direct you to someone who bulk bills. Even if the psych does not bulk bill you will get much of the fee back from Medicare. Unfortunately Medicare does not reimburse psychologist's fees unless it is on a mental health plan. The drawback to that, in my opinion, is you can only have ten sessions in any one calendar year, which seems a bit pointless if you have a serious problem.

Can you make an appointment with your GP (who may also bulk bill) and discuss these options and any the GP may have. It is important that you get help. I applaud your determination to be sociable which shows you have not given up on life.

The difficulty in making new friends when you are constantly worried about what is happening in your life, is you are not usually showing your best side. It's really unfortunate that we we cannot totally hide our difficulties and maybe that is preventing you making new friends.

What were you studying at uni and how far along are you? Do you envisage returning when your life returns to a more normal mode? If you are still interested then it may be a good way to start afresh. You know that you are constantly applying for credit cards etc and you know this is making matters worse. I know it's easy for me to say don't do it, but please try to stay away from these applications. Every time you are refused makes you feel worse and overall increases your depression. There will be a time when you apply for loans etc in the future if it is really necessary but not now.

Love to hear from you again.

Mary

[Immy-95]

Hi,

Thank you very much for your response, it was very helpful and I will take your advice on board.

Imogen

[startingnew]

Hi Immy

im gald our advice was helpful, how have you been since your first post?