Struggling with friends.

[Meh_]

I was sexually assaulted by my friend’s brother while I was sleeping at her house. After I had told her about it all my other friends started to slowly stop talking to me. I feel so lonely at school and I don’t know what to do because I have to see “him” everyday. I am also struggling with getting along with my parents (I only see my dad every two weeks). I get called a lazy b$&!h by my mum, my stepdad makes me feel like getting upset is wrong and stupid (he always makes sly comments or gets angry whenever anyone shows any sort of sad or angry emotion) and then my dad calls me a selfish, useless, lazy cow  on a regular basis. I also have my little sister and my two younger stepbrothers with which I consistently get frustrated with. I feel so lonely within my own home and at school. I went through a period of time where I went to go get help for my mental wellbeing (this was before the assault) and my mum told me that she didn’t think I needed it so I stopped. My mental health has gotten to the point where I am turning to self harm. I don’t know what to do because I want help but I’m not any good at telling people in person how I am feeling and I always freeze when asked. Is there a way for me to find support without having to chat on the phone or in person?

[james1]

Hello Meh

Welcome to the forums. I am really sad and angry to hear that people are treating you so badly. I understand that you must feel so very lonely with nobody who seems to understand or listen to you.

I am worried about you but you have done a great thing by coming here to ask for support. It is very common for people to not want to chat on the phone or in person, as it can be very scary. As an initial step, BeyondBlue has an online chat from 3PM - midnight every day.

The link is at the bottom of this page, as well as here: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/WebModules/Chat/InitialInformation.aspx

Also, 1800RESPECT run a 24 hour chat service here:https://www.1800respect.org.au/

1800RESPECT is a service specifically for sexual assault so you may find their service helpful as well. Their website also includes a lot of information.

Would you like to see if you can contact them and let us know how you go? We'd love to be able to keep supporting you through this as it's very sad to hear that you feel so alone in this.

James

[vanillax]

I can't relate to sexual assault but I can relate to feeling lonely at home and at school. When I first got diagnosed with anxiety & depression I just finished year 9 and then left after that. I was bullied all through high school, and that didn't get any better when I left. My mum and brother didn't understand what was going on at all, my mum would also get angry at me whenever I showed emotion, and would call me lazy, and my brother called me every name under the sun. So just know that you're not at all alone in how you're feeling. I'm not sure of any ways to find support without having to talk about what you're going through, but have you tried going to the school counsellor? As far as I know your mum wouldn't need to know about that, unless you tell them about the self harm, which is something that you're probably not comfortable doing (I know I never was). So while you would have to talk to them in person, it would be a good way to get support.

[Just_another_guy]

The only friend I have is the one inside my head.

[Meh_]

I have tried the school counsellor but I still find it hard opening up to people in general. My body just shuts down as soon as I try to mention the way I am feeling to anyone.

[james1]

Hi Meh_,

Have you tried the chat service since you won't need to actually speak and just type?

James