Hello Luna and very warm welcome to Beyond Blue forums
The words in your post make me feel so sad. We're so pleased you've found your way to our community that is caring, friendly, supportive and non judgemental. It is a safe place to come to listen and if you want to, to talk.
I'm not a health professional so I can't help diagnose what's happening to you. I can share with you my experiences to see if it helps.
To help us support you in the best possible way, you'll find I ask questions.There is no pressure to respond to anything you don't want to.
Being down, feeling sad, being in a constant state of nothing does sound similar to how I'm feeling when I get depressed. These feelings can be managed though and over time you learn to live with your depression. It's nothing to be scared of, there are many people out there who live with it daily. Many people you wouldn't even realise they had it because they manage it so well.
While you say nothing has changed when you talk with people, maybe you're not talking about the right things. Have you been to see your doctor recently? This might be a good first step as it sounds like you may need some medication to help settle you. You could get a longer appointment than usual to discuss the things that are happening to try to get to the bottom of what's happening. The doctor may think you would benefit from seeing another health professional.
It's okay to reach out for help, there are many services available for young people. Have you tried any of the following organisations:
- eHeadSpace 1800 650 890 (12-25 year olds)
- Lifeline 13 11 14
- Beyond Blue Support Service 1300 224 636
You are not alone out there. Keep reaching out if you want to, we are here for you.
Kind regards
PamelaR
