Severe depression but too socially anxious to talk to anyone about it

[roversfan]

I am a 13 year old boy going to an elective school. My grades have been dropping and my dad has told me that he hasn't never been any disappointed in anyone ever than how he's disappointed in me. I already tried to make a post like this but it wasn't showing up in my posts and I really had to push myself to make another. I try to talk to people about my depression but when Im about to bring it up I get very anxious. I try to leave little hints but my parents find it impossible to catch on. I seriously cannot urge myself to talk to anyone in person about this, and I seriously need help.

[white knight]

Hi roversfan, welcome

Im so glad you've contacted us. You have already shown courage in posting which is so admirable

Parents at times come across more hurtful than how they really mean it. Try to accept that their intention is to motivate you to do better.

If I was in your situation I'd try the rebound effect. That means doubling my efforts. Show your dad that you are capable of good results. Bring the determined guy out.

But maybe you need your GP or school murse to chat with him?.

Tony WK

[roversfan]

Thank you very much for replying but I only really feel confident in speaking emotionally anonymously. I find it impossible to talk to someone about my depression and that's where the problem lies. Thanks a lot for taking the time to respond to me though

[white knight]

I undetstand. The only comgort I can give you is that as you get older this vommunication block does get easier as confidence grows.

Its not much comfort but I appreciate your difficulty. Ots like stage fright but in your daily world. Do you have hobbies and sport or a passion?

Tony WK

[roversfan]

I enjoy playing football and playing computer games but my friends live far away from me and my dad is usually at work or making business calls so I tend to play by myself. There's also a ban on electronics Monday - Friday and with my recent results probably an outright ban. Sorry if I sound like a mope

[Sophie_M]

Hi roversfan, well done for making a post.  All posts to the forum are moderated, so don't appear straightaway.  If you're needing to talk with someone in realtime, then the forums aren't the best place to come because of the delay in posts appearing.  

You can speak to one of our professional counsellors on live webchat between 3pm and midnight AEST every day, and this is also anonymous:

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/get-immediate-support

Sometimes we need to push ourselves beyond our comfort zone when it comes to seeking help if we would like things to change - try the webchat and let us know how you go.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hey roversfan,

Welcome to the forums!

I'm sorry to hear that your grades are dropping and it doesn't sound like your Dad is very supportive which I bet is making things worse right now.

You said you've tried to talk to people about depression and given little hints; can you talk more about what these are?

It can be incredibly hard to talk and say that you're struggling but I do think it's worth it; because then you don't have to feel so alone in this. Sometimes the uncomfortableness of having to talk to someone can outweigh that feeling of kinda shoving it in the corner. I'm not trying to say that you're shoving it in the corner, but I know I did and I think over time it builds up inside of you when you can't get it out.

By the way you don't sound like a mope. I'm glad you're here and this is what BB is for.

Oh and finally - sometimes the forums screw up a little so if ever you're going to make a post copy it in Word or something first just in case you lose it or there's an error. That way you don't have to go and re-type it again.