Hey, I'm new. Basically i just wanna rant to ya'll because you understand aha. So basically, I've had anxiety since year six, it's been rough. when i have an attack i feel like i'm going to pass out, or my chest will explode or something like that. I decided to post right now, because i had an attack this morning. And i managed it. Granted, i sat on my bedroom floor crying for a half hour, and i almost hyperventilated, but for me that's progress! But i still have a long way to go, but i'm really glad that i'm learning to manage my anxiety, and i'm no longer having attacks everyday. I'm in high school, and these two teachers always make me feel so stressed and anxious, even when they walk past me in the hallway. My palms get sweaty, and i tense up. I don't feel safe near them. AND, a neighbor of ours is SUPER narcissistic, he bullied my and my younger brother when we were little, and once he came to our damn house, and i had to tell my little brother to hide in the bedroom, so i could answer the door, only to be bullied and berated. The situation was dealt with, but whenever i walk past his house i feel so scared and anxious. It gave me massive PTS from when i was in touch with my dad, and when i saw him. I feel like i can't escape from my anxiety, it's like a huge black smoke that follows me, and when something scary or odd happens, it fills my lounges and chokes me. And covid19 isn't helping either!!
Sorry for ranting, i just needed to get that out of my system. I guess that's what these forums are for though!
Sending love and virtual hugs to everyone!! Hope ya'll are well xx
