quick question

[mia2_0]

sooo I don't know if I have depression or anxiety or if this is just what being like a teenager is like. I tick off most of the symptoms and the quiz thing on this website said I should seek help but what's not to say that this will just pass and that I'm actually fine? How do I know for sure without having to go see some rando shrink?

Sometimes I just feel like I feel too much, like I'm filled to the brim with emotion and have no way to get it out. Sometimes I just sit their and literally scream internally, like in my head I'm just screaming. In class the other day, out of no where, I was just filled with anxiety and I just pretended like I was fine but it's like i was made of electricity and I didn't know if I wanted to cry non stop or run a marathon. Sometimes I'm just kind of frozen and I have to push through, or I can't seem to quite catch my breathe. I'm constantly tired but find it really hard to get any sleep. but what scares me most is when I get that empty feeling, not like I've been hollowed out or something but I'm just numb and can't feel anything. I don't think scare s the right word but I don't think I should be going emotionally numb. I've gained heaps of weight and my one joy used to be reading and now I barely pick up a book unless I have to. And i freaking love reading and I miss it soo much but i cant seem to bring myself to do it, or if i do its a struggle.

So have a just grown out of a much loved hobby? Is it all just teenage hormones making sleeping difficult and throwing my emotions around? How do I know if I'm just growing up or suffering from an actual problem, or is the fact I even need to ask answer that already? I just want to stop feeling like this so I'm really hoping that in two years I'll hit that magical 18 and be fine. If these years are meant to be the best of my life then I'm royally screwed unless I figure out how to be happy again. Not that I'm not happy, on good days I am. Maybe I just have social anxiety. I don't know. That's the problem.

So does anyone have any thoughts? Am I just being an over analytic angsty over privileged teen with no real problems who should just get over themselves like I think I'm being or do I actually have ground to be concerned.

Any way, if anyone sees this and has made it this far, any help is welcome, and I hope you're ok and have a lovely day/night/life

[blondguy]

Hi Mia2.0

Welcome to the forums and I think you are amazing by having the strength to reach out! Nice1 🙂

If the feelings you describe above begin to have an effect on your day to day life then it would be a good move to see your GP. Your school counselor is also a good choice too.

You are an intelligent and well articulated person Mia.....not to mention how proactive you are with your health as well. Im not a doctor in any way shape or form. I have had anxiety and know the warning signals if you have any more questions.

You are also a legend for taking the brief test that Beyond Blue has provided. Even though it may say 'yes' is not the end of the world. There are many people in secondary school (and Uni) that feel the same way you do too

Its only my humble opinion as a volunteer on the forums Mia.......GP's have a greater understanding of anxiety now than even just a few years ago. The weight gain is also common as well as having a 'tight' chest/the ability to catch your breath.....and yes hormones can be a contributing factor too..

I dont know if you have a GP, but just from my experience with any 'possible' anxiety you have everything to gain and nothing to lose by having an appointment......preferably a double appointment and having a good talk.

I have read your post twice and you dont have any issues where communication is concerned 🙂

There are many gentle people (and young people!) on the forums that are happy to be here for you

Please let us know your thoughts about seeing your GP when convenient. This is your thread topic and you are more than welcome to post as many times as wish

My kind thoughts for you

Paul