Hello and welcome to beyond blue.
Sorry to hear about your thoughts. They must be really troubling you.
Yet when it comes to a mental illness you look fine on the outside, or healthy but your mind is what needs fixing. So if you said to someone that you are worried about falling sick the GP might check that and conclude you are healthy?
So I will ask whether you have looked at the K10 test on the beyond blue website? Have a look at that and see what it recommends? If you want to talk to your GP about that with your thoughts as symptoms in addition to how you answer the questions?
Also sleep plays a big part in how we, or at least I feel. My psychiatrist was the one who told me about sleep hygiene, and for me I don't drink coffee after 4pm. It helps or enables me to sleep through.
On meditation - it is ok if your mind does wander. If it does, bring it back to your breathing and meditation. It takes time and practice.
One thing that you could look into are distraction tools. Things that enable us to bring ourselves back to the present moment. Mindfulness is one idea in this area.
With all of this, and I am not saying that you do or don't have any problems I do know of the effects of sleep problems. Waking up and ruminating on thoughts in your head, and them not going away.
And the last question is whether there are any stresses in your life at the moment? And do you go to sleep with these thoughts? Or wake up in the middle of the night with them?
Our minds and bodies tell us things, just depends on whether we listen to it? Or not?
Tonight, try a guided meditation, and see if that helps you get to sleep?
Sending peaceful thoughts to you,
Tim
