First time posting in a forum like this.
I am a 23y/o male, work full time for a big company that looks after me, currently renting an apartment by myself in a great location. I feel like I have a great life and in no way should be complaining, but I don't enjoy anything. Nothing interests me and there is nothing that I look forward to.
Not really sure what to write so I guess I will just share my story that I think has led to me feeling this way.
I guess I really started feeling this way a couple years ago. I was still with my girlfriend (we dated for just over 2 years, broke up in December 2014), we rented a place together, had a couple cats, she got along with my family really well. Then all of a sudden my girlfriend and sister stopped talking to each other over something really stupid and everything started going downhill. Family get togethers always became fights and when we did go it would just be awkward. We stopped going for a while to let my GF and sister get over it, that never happened.
Anyway, all of this resulted in a heap of fights. Each fight would usually end with me wanting to end the relationship and her never letting me leave. Eventually I just had enough and I never came back.
My GF was taken off the lease and I stayed in the house with the cats for a few months. I was handling it really well, then the lease ended and they didn't want to renew the lease. I wasn't really expecting this, I always kept the place tidy and never once missed a payment in 12 months. I started getting really stressed about this because I would now have to find a new place and move by myself, while coping with work (which we have a big project happening so is crazy busy). But the thing that stressed me most was that I would have to get rid of the cats.
Eventually I found a new place and found a home for the cats (I didnt really like where they went but it was that or the RSPCA..). I feel like I am on top of work for once, have a good relationship with my friends and family, but I still cant enjoy anything.
I just feel like there is nothing I look forward to and I dont enjoy anything that I do. The last time I remember looking forward to anything was when I could go home and tell my GF about my day. I want nothing more than to talk to her and see how she is, but I know that will just make things harder and we will be back to square one. I have tried meeting other people but I am hopeless and have no idea what I am doing, all I know is what I did when I was with my GF.
