No Motivation

[Deus]

I've not long finished High School. And I regretted every second of my last year. Beginning high school all I remember is jumping up in the morning, getting ready and racing into the car so I can be at school before it started.

About half way through I moved back to my home country and I hated every second since I got back. I made new friends who ended up being completely two faced. I thought I'd be alright to get through school till we moved back, but since being stabbed in the back by my 'social circle' I've found no motivation in anything.

Since my last year, I've become secluded. Started to dislike the general public, found no motivation in the simplest things. I'm too scared to find a career path in the chance I'll end up hating everything I try. I have one or two friends, and both of them live miles away from me. I've hated the way I look since I was young but it never got me down during high school till I lost my friends.

I can't help feeling like it'll just be a phase, but deep inside I realise it's been too long, and I don't know what to do anymore.

Any suggestion on my first baby steps to get myself back into the mindset of my old self? Much appreciated.

[GoodWitch]

Hi Deus

I'm sorry about what happened with your friend group. It's understandable you'd be demoralised. People you liked and trusted let you down/hurt you, and that's not okay. It's also a stressful time, leaving school and having to pick a career. There's a lot of pressure to 'get it right' but the truth is you'll likely have more than one career path in your life. If you try something and do end up hating it like you fear, you can try something else. The point is to give things a go. If you're having too much trouble getting motivated to do that, it's possible you're experiencing some depression, which is totally understandable in the circumstances.

You said you moved back to your home country...are you living in Australia now? Have you thought of exploring the resources on Headspace? They are a great organisation dedicated to helping young people experiencing stresses like yours. You can check out the website from anywhere, just google the name. It's a great starting point to finding information and getting ideas about how to pull yourself out of your current state.

Life can be very overwhelming. Reach out for whatever help you can.

GW